[blubutterflies03]

I have been told to forget about him, to know he is in good hands, he is with his " family" now. Baby B has been gone for 1 month, now with his biological Dad and bio grandmother. We have seen him twice since he left (court ordered) actually they had him out of town and were not suppose to since the case is still under supervision for 3 months...and they missed 2 visits. The baby bed is down, all his things are gone, the place where his pack n play was is empty. I feel a hole in my heart. I am trying to fill it with the other kids here that keep me super busy. I saw a pic of him today at his daycare he went to and I abruptly tried to ignore it. I sit here now and cry though. I miss him so much. It is hard to raise a baby from birth to 15 months old and let go. I guess it will take longer than I thought. I just needed somewhere to talk. thanks for listening.

[Kelly Rae]

Isn't it wonderful how much love you poured into his life that you morn him so deeply. You did an awesome thing you gave him your love, care, and a safe place to be. You did a wonderful selfless thing that will have lasting effects. I'm sorry for your sorrow, but rejoice for this little one who learned about love from such an awesome mom.

[blubutterflies03]

thanks Kelly Rae...sounds like you have a full house like me!

[GaViolet]

Hugs for you. I know that is very hard when they leave because mine left yesterday. My thoughts are with you. Just remember all the good times you had with your little guy and all the stuff you got to see him do for the first time. The way he growed and his unconditional love for you.

[fostapeepz]

It's been almost 4 months that our little bub has been gone. He was just with us for 6 months and it still hurt like heck to send him back home. The caseworker brought us current pictures, and I'm glad we have them for his sisters, but it still hurts to look at them.

[Larue]

I am so sorry. Sending you hugs...

[Newshyde]

You will never forget him. What a silly thing for someone to say to you. You loved him. He was your son. You are entitled to mourn him as long as you need to.
I still miss my first foster son. I had him for 12 months and he has been gone for 10 months and I think about him every day. His pictures are still on my wall, as are the pictures of my current foster kids. Every once in a while I even let myself dream about his grandma deciding that he is too much and letting me have him back... although I know that is unrealistic.
Don't be too hard on yourself. I let myself grieve for six weeks before I took in new foster kids and it was really good for me. It wasn't until about 3-4 days before my current kids came that I felt like I could share my heart.
It's only been a month. Let yourself grieve. Even now, if someone told me to forget about my former foster son, I would probably punch that person in the mouth. If someone said that after a month...ohhhh... that person would have been in big time trouble.

Good luck. heidi

[deadcalm]

I had my Munchkin from birth to 21 months. She has been gone since March and still can't stop crying. The agency called twice with a new placement, but I told them have to give up my license. I guess fostering is not for me. I deal deal with the pain of losing a child. I will pray for you and pray that we both make it though this time of hardship. I am trying to stay strong and I want you to do the same.

[suzyq18]

I wish I could tell you ... but this is hard on all of us.
Little Buddy that I've loved was removed and I did not even get to say goodbye. I am getting ready to fight for him as it was not proper to remove him, it was the whim of the state worker. She was miffed at us for speaking out about his medical issues.
I feel so much for you, you loved this little one, you were a great mom, you are a great mom.