[Sam-N-Tony]

Okay, I don't know how to feel about this, it's a bitter/sweet moment for me.

They have decided to transition Mr. Touchy home. I am extremely happy and sad both at the same time. I don't know if it'll be successful but it's about time they do something, he's only been in care for 28 months of his life.

With everything going on in my personal life, this is the best thing that could happen for him (and me). He's such a difficult child and I know I wouldn't be able to handle him alone. I love him as my own, as he's been with me for the last almost year and half. But I am really looking forward to at least having the weekends off for a couple of weeks before he goes home. I am praying that his Dad does well with him and that it is successful this time. He is the most difficult, needy, and delayed child out of all 4, he is the make it or break it kid. If Dad can handle him, then he can handle all the kids.

I don't know how to feel....

[greenrobin]

I think you're doing a fine job of feeling what you're feeling.

I know that sounds like a cop-out, but it's true. Goodbyes are sad most of the time, but ours are compounded by worry that things will go badly for kids we love and joy that this is a family that might just make it. We love the kids and want the best for them. They love us and their other families. We want them to have what they want even when that causes us pain.

So, yeah. I think you're doing fine.

No matter how we feel about it, we're going to grieve. And feel relieved. And worried. And.......

Be gentle with yourself. It's very complex. Just feel what you feel. And do something nice for yourself!

[Withay]

Very well put GR.