[lovingheart]

So baby boy went to his kinship to adoption placement yesterday and I can honestly say it was the hardest thing I have every had to do, even DH broke down. SW stood there telling us what a good job we had done and how she would put us in touch with other foster parents who have gone through similar experience...blah blah blah. The only thing I have ever had to do that hurt more was dealing with my miscarriage on my own. We are okay but hurting and want only the best for him. Hoping to get another placement soon to be able to focus on something outside of myself. My aunt passed away yesterday unexpectedly too so all in all what a crapfest of a day.

[musemoon]

Oh my God...I am so sorry. I pray that your child finds you soon.

[kxl164]

Sorry for your pain, talking with others might be a good idea though and the SW is right, you did do a wonderful job for this little one and gave him a great start.

[amy_b]

So sorry. I can't imagine how difficult this must be for you.

[jphollen]

(((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry.

[fostapeepz]

What an awful day! I hope things look up very soon.

[stevenstwin]

Oh, I'm so sorry! My condolences on the loss of your aunt. I hope things feel brighter soon!

[Mkap]

hang in there - I'm so so sorry you're going through all of this, how difficult it is. Hugs and support your way!

[Newshyde]

I did that over the summer and I can honestly say it was the hardest thing I've ever done. I took a 6 week break just to feel really sad and regroup. I know how awful you feel and to add your aunt's death all I can do is give you the best advice I got over the summer. This is it: It's ok to feel bad and be mad and grieve and cry and want to hit a wall and only you can decide when you are done with all of that.
Everyone kept telling me to "take a week." When I didn't feel better after a week I felt guilty and bad for not feeling better. So my advice is don't take a week. Take as much time as you need. Some people need a new placement right away to help them move on and others need to take time. Do what feels best for you and don't feel the least bit guilty about it.
And lastly, for what it's worth a big internet (((((((((((((((HUG))))))))))))))))).
HEIDI

[jllambert]

I'm very sorry! I remeber like it was yesterday how I felt when our first baby left (kinship placement)! I still cry when I think about it! It really was so very very awful!. We took another placement that same day. I think I thought it would help me get over it, but it did not! I felt like I had lost my own child! I was in such a funk for weeks and weeks! My husband was worried sick, and I felt like I was crazy for not being able to just get over it! Finally time went on and I started to get a little better each day! I was lucky because the baby's grandparnts are wonderful and have kept in close contact with us (totally did not expect that), and we get picture and visits.
I was so worried it was going to be that awful each time, and I did not know if I could deal with that. Each time we say goodbye to one of our lil ones it is hard, but I also think it gets a little easier as we do it more and more!
Hang in there! ((((hugs)))))