[shavon]

Wow..I never figured things would get so emotional around here...my little mans FST meeting was today and they approved 2 hour visits instead of 1. And as soon as his daddy gets him apartment set up for little man the unsupervised visits will start

I am so proud of his dad, he has done a wonderful job of "getting it together" we have a good relationship with each other and I think he will still let me see little man..

Now the sad part..I am going to miss my little man so much, he has been here since he was 3mos old and he is 9 mos now...

How do you all deal with so many emotions? I have been a basket case all morning just thinking of being without him for 2 hours. How am I going to breath without him when he goes home? How can I be so selfish as to be so sad that he will be ru? haw can i be so happy that he is going to be ru.. Where did all these emotions come from and why wont my eyes stop wattering????

Thanks for letting me get my feeling out!!!!

[Boulderbabe]

It's easy to see how much you love this little guy. I can see that you want the best for him, and that you're going to miss him tons.

Could you offer his Dad a night out once a week? Then you could see the little guy, and bDad could get some respite.

[Maura_H]

I am going through the same thing. My little one had zip done on her case for 7 wks, then suddenly the bios got it together and have been working their plan diligently for 2 mos. The magistrate is even impressed! I really like these parents too and they are very nice, thankful and appreciative to me.
Thing is I will miss her so much! Her timeline home is approx Feb/Mar. I will be supportive because I am happy for everyone involved but still, it is sad on my part!
I have learned to focus on the next placement - as when she leaves me that opens up my home for another baby.

I too hope they keep in touch, but it's up to them. As foster parents sometimes we are just a stepping stone in that child's life - and overall that's fine with me, but still we are human and do grieve when they leave us.

So I have no words to help you feel better. Just know you are not alone........

[forever14230]

Hugs. I can't imagine how tough it would be to have to "let go" of a child you are so bonded with, even when you truly like the bio's.

I think offering the dad a night out is a great idea. It sounds like a win-win situation b/c you could still follow the little boy's progress and also have a little positive influence in his life.

[shavon]

boulderbabe---I do love him so much that it can not even be put into words...His daddy did say that he would always let us be a part of his life, he even went as far as to say that we are his family. That being said though he is still his dad and it is up to him after he is reunited..I do plan on telling him that I will watch him day or night and hopefully he will let us.

Maura h...I hope all goes well with ru..It does hurt, I am here for a sounding board if you need it..