[jjjjmom]

I’m having a very hard time dealing with the holidays this year. I’m missing curly top and bunny boy terribly! Every little thing I do I think “we did this together last year” and it hurts. I didn’t even post anything when they left in July because I was falling apart and I know it’s normal to feel this way when “our babies” leave, but, see mine went back to mom and within 2 months she told the SW that she couldn’t handle them and wanted to put them up for adoption (she has 4 kids) luckily dad stepped up and took all of them, but has to work 2 jobs now which keeps him away from them. And of course the children are acting up, mother talked about giving them up in front of them; I can just imagine how that must make them feel. I’m going to see if I can visit with them, I just want to bring them home, they were so happy with me, I want them back in my life, I miss their little faces lighting up with all the Christmas decoration and the parade and presents and their little voices telling me thank you, this is the best day of my life! Oh… I’m just so sad, I feel like crying all over again. I am thankful for the children I have right now, which by the way are supposed to leave before Christmas. I just need a hug………………….

[shavon]

ohhh (((((hugs))))) I feel your pain. I am so sorry you are going thru this around the holidays.

My little guys dad is doing really well so I am sure he will be ru soon and I am so scared..He is the light of our whole families lives..just thinking about it physically hurts, I am so proud of his daddy, but so sad for us...

again (((((HUGS)))))

Shavon

[athikers]

oh... how I understand I'm having the same sort of day. I just want my baby boy back, but he's not mine to get back.

[Jensboys]

Oh I feel the same. I am two years out and its so much worse at this time of year. Hugs and I am sorry it hurts. Really I am.

[forever14230]

(((Hugs))) I hope you can at least visit with them over the holidays.

[crystalp]

I wish I could do more!