[Jenkay]

I'm so sorry you've had such a tough time with your little girl. Your ok saying you wish you had never done it, there are times since we got our dd that i've thought this was the wrong thing to do but I know that we have made a choice and we must adjust to the way our lives are now. I know we're doing the right thing I just feel like the fit is a little off and maybe that will change and maybe it wont but we have her now and I owe to her to give her a good life. We're the adults right? As for your dd, if she is that disruptive and hard maybe the fit is too wrong and maybe you should think of another alternative? I dont know what to say, I do know that our birth children can turn out completely not like we expected and we have to raise them for better or for worse. I really feel for you and never ever think your a bad person, your a good person in a very difficult situation!

[athikers]

I stumbled about this thread and smiled when I read the post regarding the panic. Right now I am in panic mode of the kiddo we are matched with. He is very, very high needs special needs (not behavioral, but medical and development) and I am wondering a lot lately, is this REALLY what we want to do. We are asking many questions and hopefully we will have some clarity and make a final decision very soon.