[Hugs]

I also was a foster mom, in hopes of adopting. We chose to foster a 14 year old boy. Circumstances led to his removal from our home (his actions betrayed my husbands trust in him being alone with me). It was a very difficult decision! He was very upset when he learned he wouldn't be returning. It was a decision that hurt us and what we thought would be our future. We gave it time and our hearts have healed. We still find ourselves missing him, but realized we were not what was best for him. He needed some major counseling and my husband couldn't deal with his sexualing acting out. Give it time! You spend lots of time thinking through this and youmust consider your family too! A love for these children brought you to accept them into your lives and want to help. You did, no matter how long they were in your home. You supplied a home and love. It is difficult to foster and have their actions disrupt your family. My heart goes to you!