[tryingtokeepangel]

I don't like coming on here much because it is so hard for me, and I would like to think I am a strong person, but when I read ALL these cases, and know how ours is going it literally makes me sick...I know now I am NOT a strong person.
Our case has turned upside down, and is becaming a nightmare.One I would NOT wish on any parent, and thats what I am I am a mother of two beautifull little girls, With one trying to be taking away from us, I can't eat, this is all I can think about, all my focus is on the daughter that I may not have for long..I need someone to tell me that everything will be ok, but I know I will never hear that again,NOTHING will be the same. I am gonna end up with one daughter instead of two, how do I go on ??? I am a mother of TWO...This isn't right, its not fair. All I do is cry over the little things that might be taking from us. It might be the last time I tell this little angel I love her I hold her I kiss the hurt away, somebody please tell me how do I go on.....I know this is ripping my husband apart, and I can't even be there for him.
I was told by a lawyer here in Ohio today that we HAVE to get a lawyer down in N.C. I have writting to all the talk shows and call the news in our area, and thought I had one coming back out today but then they called and said they had to turn it down...How can ANYONE to down this child?? But thats what they are doing, NO ONE has talked to her, do u know how hard it was for me to talk to her and tell her that they might be coming to take her away..all she did was cry, and ask me how long...I told her it might be a long time...That KILLED me to tell her that. No child should have to hear them words, but she did. I live in FEAR, doors are locked windows are closed and lock, and I will not let her go outside, in fear that they are gonna come and take her. My husband is right about one thing, I don't want you to pray for us but to PRAY for a person we call OUR DAUGHTER, she will ALWAYS be that to us!!! I love her more then life itself!! Any parent would understand that statement.

[ourdreamcametru]

Reading your post brings tears to my eyes and pain to my heart. I can't even begin to imagine what your family must be going through. You are each in my prayers.
Kelley

[Jaefer]

My heart is breaking for your family. You must know that you ARE strong. You have been strong to fight as long as you have and you have been strong for your daughter. YOUR DAUGHTER! My prayers will not stop for you or your family!!!

[kelceesmom]

It takes strength to continue a fight. That is what you are doing. I am sorry for all the hurt that is going on in your world. We will keep you in our prayers.

[lonni]

I am so sorry your little girl is in so much pain and all of you are suffering so much.

[MamaS]

You must carry the legal fight to NC. Ask your church for help. Our church held a big rummage sale, a bake sale, and a chicken-que to help a family that was adopting. Don"t let pride stop you from asking. You have given to others throughout your life -- now is the time to receive.

[billysmommy]

I have no words, only my support and some (((((((((HUGS)))))))))).
I too, fought the fight you are fighting right now, and I know your pain very well. Throughout our battle, I prayed for the strength to survive it. Now, each and every night, I say a prayer for the children whose worlds may be turned upside down by our lousy judicial system. I ask G-d to grant the families strength and hope.

We are here for you, anytime, anything you need.

[ChristieS]

That I am here for you.

That there are straws.

That we are suffering but have done nothing wrong.

That we have done the best we knew to do, every step of the way.

That we are MOMS and THEY can NOT take that away from us!

...That I love you.

Lean on me...

[SadMomma]

Our family is here for you and cry for you also. Just know we all will help you fight as you all have helped us. I hope my PM was a start to help you and PM me so we can talk more or maybe get you in touch with other folks.

[luvmylittlegirls]

Originally Posted by tryingtokeepangel

I don't like coming on here much because it is so hard for me, and I would like to think I am a strong person, but when I read ALL these cases, and know how ours is going it literally makes me sick...I know now I am NOT a strong person.
Our case has turned upside down, and is becaming a nightmare.One I would NOT wish on any parent, and thats what I am I am a mother of two beautifull little girls, With one trying to be taking away from us, I can't eat, this is all I can think about, all my focus is on the daughter that I may not have for long..I need someone to tell me that everything will be ok, but I know I will never hear that again,NOTHING will be the same. I am gonna end up with one daughter instead of two, how do I go on ??? I am a mother of TWO...This isn't right, its not fair. All I do is cry over the little things that might be taking from us. It might be the last time I tell this little angel I love her I hold her I kiss the hurt away, somebody please tell me how do I go on.....I know this is ripping my husband apart, and I can't even be there for him.
I was told by a lawyer here in Ohio today that we HAVE to get a lawyer down in N.C. I have writting to all the talk shows and call the news in our area, and thought I had one coming back out today but then they called and said they had to turn it down...How can ANYONE to down this child?? But thats what they are doing, NO ONE has talked to her, do u know how hard it was for me to talk to her and tell her that they might be coming to take her away..all she did was cry, and ask me how long...I told her it might be a long time...That KILLED me to tell her that. No child should have to hear them words, but she did. I live in FEAR, doors are locked windows are closed and lock, and I will not let her go outside, in fear that they are gonna come and take her. My husband is right about one thing, I don't want you to pray for us but to PRAY for a person we call OUR DAUGHTER, she will ALWAYS be that to us!!! I love her more then life itself!! Any parent would understand that statement.

You know, this may sound silly - but one of the best free ways I know to focus attention onto your situation is to create a video (or photo slideshow) with music and enough text to explain the highpoints of your situation and then post it onto youtube, myspace and anywhere else that you can.

I have NO doubt that your video would create serious buzz and likely get the attention of the media and others that can help.

If you need some help with this, just ask. PM and I'll send you my email. If you already have the photos or some video, this could be online literally in a day or two. It would be my pleasure to help.

Best wishes.

[tryingtokeepangel]

I would like to take this time to THANK EVERYONE that has replied to my post or my husbands post... I Know for myself that I could NOT go on if I didn't have you all, You are helping me though the toughest fight that I will ever go though.
Christie... You are so dear to me, I listen to you and with everything you are going though you still reach out to me and I am VERY GREATFUL for that.I can honestly say I have found a lifetime friend.
To the rest thank you we are taking everyones post and trying everything.
I talked to a lawyer yesterday in N.C. and he gave me some hope, he told me that there is things that can be done, and that what I am holding onto might be right that all GOD wants us tpo do is go down there and show them that they can't just do this, I am praying everday for the strengh and for his help.
to my husband, the love I will NEVER let go...I know that you have a ton on your plate at this point in time. After our talk over the weekend, I know what we decided to do,As a FAMILY we are gonna FIGHT this with everything we have, you gave me hope, I was so afraid that you were gonna tell me that we can't fight no more but you didn't.I know I am a backet case and no where near out of it yet but when I see you come home at night I know I can lean on you and you will be here. You told me that GOD has to have a plan for all this, And I totally agree with that you have shown me to believe in GOD, and that is helping me get though each min. of a day. I love you so very much!!

[StacyKelly2]

Reading your post brings tears to my eyes. I know and feel your pain. I know this is not easy. You can never protect your heart, because you love your angel so much! Always know God chose you to be this angel's mommy. She will always carry the love she knows from both you and your husband. You gave this child the love she so desperately needed..and she is truly lucky and blessed to have the both of you! Without a doubt she was placed right where she belongs!! Keep faith no matter how hard or hopeless...I know its hard, but ask for God to stand by you no matter what happens. I hope and continue to pray for you and your family and mostly for your angel..you all deserve peace. Always know that you are doing all you can, and that is what matters the most!! Always know that she will carry everything she learned and everything she felt with her in her heart all because of you and your loving family. Reading your postings I know how much you love her, I feel your pain. Just know that she has a better life because of the two of you!! You both have made such a difference, and don't give up hope...I continue to pray because that is all we can do now, and only hope that God will get you all through this emotional time. Please if you need anything or just someone to listen know I am here you can pm me. Know we are all supporting you and we know the love you have in your hearts it shines through in every posting!! God Bless

[tryingtokeepangel]

I am writting to let everyone know that we did hire a N.C. lawyer,and we are HOPING that he will help us keep OUR daughter. and I have made a myspace page for her and our family...If anyone would like to visit my name under there is momslittangel. We will keep everyone posted on what is going on. And We thank you for all the prays, you two are in our hearts and prays.

[SadMomma]

DaddyAngel and Wifeof DaddyAngel,
I have a child advocated that said you can give her a call. I will PM you her information, she looks forward to hearing from you.

[tryingtokeepangel]

I am writting this to let everyone know that, We did get ahold of Hear my Voice and I talked to Debbie and they are gonna help...I was so happy yesterday, not because they are gonna help but maybe I can still have a little HOPE, that this nightmare will go away.

Sadmama--- Thank you so much I think you are what got Hear my Voice to help, I called and me and my husband did the intake but nothing and then you came along, I will never be able to thank you enough.

Christie---You have been there for me alot, and I love just being able to call you, I know that we all on hereare dealing with the same crap, and NO ONE should have too. But when you have people reach out to you and just want to be there it does help get you though some of the darkest times. And thats what you all did, even the replies helped me, I find myself coming to this board every day, and I hated to before, It is still hard, cause I realize that this is happening way to much. And it effects alot more then just your family. I will keep everyone posted on what is going on but right now I Do have some HOPE, and for me that will help.