[taramayrn]

I just wanted to start this thread with Mother's Day coming up. We all know Mother's Day can be one of the most painful days in the year for birthmothers. Please know we are here to listen and talk. ((((HUGS))))

[thanksgivingmom]

Thanks Tara! I'll admit, I've gotten to the time when saying "Mother's Day" does make me follow-up with a little "ugh" and a face.

I was talking to roomie this weekend and she asked me about next weekend. I couldn't remember and then realized and said, "Oh, that's Mother's Day." I felt my face do a little snarl.

Last year was okay, who knows about this year?

[JustPeachy]

I was already having mixed feelings about this. My mom makes a big "to-do" out of Mother's Day and it hurts me that she doesn't seem to understand that it can be difficult for me. Even if I express to her that it is hard, she will still make it about her (i.e. why should she be denied HER day because I am feeling sad about my situation). Then I just tell myself to bite the bullet and deal with it. But sometimes I get tired of biting the bullet. I think if she acknowledged me as a mom too, it would feel better. Maybe I should have a talk with her about it.....

[taramayrn]

Mother's day will be different for me this year, since I am pregnant and technically am a mother - to - be. But this year, I put my heart on the line and invited T's mom to the Bmom's Day event, I still haven't heard from her. I'm really hoping she will come.

[lahdh4]

I have dreaded this day for 4 years now.

My therapist sending me a card just isn't the same.

[browneyes0707]

I want to kinda skip over the day, and focus on my mom and my MIL with my hubby. I'm struggling with a lot right now as it is, I'm just not in the mood to deal with Mother's Day right now!

[taramayrn]

I can understand how you feel Brown. Wish I didn't have to deal with the emotions of mother's day in an already busy and tiring week.

[thanksgivingmom]

Well my Mom keeps calling me asking my what my plans for Mothers Day are....like I'd have my own plans. I keep telling her that I assume I'll be spending it with her and she keeps telling me it's not a big deal, if I have other plans that's okay, it won't hurt her feelings...she knows I've been trying to get out of town on a weekend and every weekends busy so she said I could leave this one if that would work for my schedule.

It's really driving me nuts. I find myself irrationally super mad at her that she seems like she doesn't want to do Mothers Day this year...she keeps saying that the other kids will be there like that makes it okay if one's missing...when I know one will ALWAYS be missing and that it WON'T be okay...

Ugh, I'm emotional today.

[bajj]

(((((TGM))))) I am so sorry.

[Oceans]

I am REALLY struggling with Mother’s Day this year. For the first time, I have a face and a name. Not only that, I have an email out there that he’s not answering and seems to be uninterested (not checking out my MS page etc.). For the past 26 years, Mother’s Day was a day I could spend time remembering him, believing he was thinking of me (if only a little bit)…. indulging in the adoption fantasy.

This year I’m facing reality and quite frankly it is making me sick to my stomach – This is shaping up to be a really HARD week. I want to run away…. but instead I'll be spending it with J’s mom, eating brunch and pretending I’m happy to be there…. Not to mention calling my own Mom and rehashing what little I know of my son.

I want to throw up….

[thanksgivingmom]

(((((Oceans))))))

I should DEFINITELY have my computer back and working this weekend so I think I can safely say, I'll be here for you if you need

[sstuart]

((((Leigh,TGM,Oceans,Brown, Tamaryn))))

This mother's day will be my first one since I have reunited. I don't know if she will say anything or not. I guess I will just wait and see. I would like to send her mother a card, but I may not for fear of course. Maybe next year!!

[RavenSong]

For some reason, I am really struggling this year with Mother's Day. Maybe it's because my hormones are all over the place, with my estrogen levels going up and down like crazy...change of life sucks.

My mom and I are not on speaking terms right now, so that may have something to do with it. My favorite aunt, who is a second mother to me, is dying, and I'm having a horrible time with saying goodbye to her...I don't want to let her go. I just want to curl up in bed and sleep lately, but the hot flashes won't let me.

I don't know if my son will acknowledge me on Mother's Day this year or not. He usually does, but this year may be different. Although we've reconciled, our relationship isn't as close as it once was. I looked thru his childhood photo album last night, and I cried for hours. I think I'm having an anniversary reaction to his bdad's death, too.

Not a good week....

[soprano]

I'm sorry you're having such a rough time, Raven. Not the best week for me either, even without all the extras you're carrying with you.

Hang in there,

Soprano

[RavenSong]

Thanks, Soprano. I'm sorry to hear that your week isn't a good one, either. I just feel so down in the dumps today. I haven't been sleeping very well lately, and I think the sleep deficit is really catching up with me. Sometimes I just wish life didn't have to be so hard...