[droptheapple]

I have been looking for a therepist that deals with adoption.

My wrote earlier about my situation. My half sister who I hardly knew adopted my son. My mother had taken him when he was 6 months old. Said she was going on vacation, but she didn`t come back. When I went to see what taking so long, she told me that it would better to give him to my sister to raise. She wasn`t comming back and I have no home etc.
The decision was made on spir of the moment. I was 17.
I headed back to Toronto where I live, and left my son on the eastcoast. It was unspoken, but made very clear after the papers were sign that I would have no contact with my son.
He`s 27, and getting to know him is strained.
I really need a therepist who deals with these issues.

No one in my family really cares what I think. They think I should just get on with it. Forget about it.
I told my brother one time. What if it was your daughter that had been taken.

My family just like to look at what a bad teenager I was. I was a normal teenager. Except for the fact I had to run away from a foster home from hell with a guy that beat me, so I didn`t have to endure anymore panting in my 15 year old ear from a foster parent who ran a foster home, run by the goverment.
My mother asked why I was birth control when i didn`t have a boyfriend, but still left me there. i guess she had to. she was sick with cancer. But then thats another Forum.

I think its my family who need therepy. I have been off and on in therepy as well as hospitalized in the past, mostly in the 80`s. Haven`t been in for 10 years now.

But I do get counseling just for everyday stuff, but with this I don`t feel I`m getting anywhere. Money is an issue. If I could find counceler that is on a sliding skale, that would be good.

Still in Toronto.

Droptheapple
Thank you