[aj2002]

I relinquished my parental rights for my son the day after he was born. I really didn't want to do it, but everyone was telling me it was the right thing to do. Now, two girls I went to school with are pregnant, one is getting married, and on is going to raise the child on her own. My cousins' girlfiren (who is two years younger than me) is due in November, and her mom is going to help her raise the baby. Also, my fiancee's sister-in-law is pregnant, and his mom thinks that it is all so awesome. When I had Jeremy, she came to the hospital, but it was more like she felt she "had" to be there... I could tell by her body language. While I really am happy for all of these people, I can't help but feel resentment towards them because they get to keep thier babies. I feel really guilty about this, but I can seem to let go of my anger. Does anyone have any ideas on how to get over this... I was raised a Catholic, and we are NOT supposed to feel this way towards others.

[HAIR127]

HI AJ..... TO ME IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU ARE FEELING ANGER!!!!!!. PERIOD. WHICH IS OK AND NATURAL...GOING THROUGH THE GREIVING STAGES. THE ANGER MEANS YOUR HEALING PARTS OF YOURSELF. ARE YOU REALLY ANGRY AT EVERONE ELSE...OR DOES YOUR ANGER LAY WITH WHAT YOU CHOOSE TO DO. IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU DID NOT GET MUCH SUPPORT GOING THROUGH THIS PREGNANCY. AM I RIGHT? I CAN HEAR YOUR PAIN. IT IS INSIDE YOU AND SEEING ALL THESE PREGNANT GIRLS ...MAYBE IS TRIGGERING IT. BEING TRIGGERED IS HARD...BUT I HAVE LEARNED...BY BEING TRIGGERED...I FEEL THE PAIN...YET I GROW THROUGH IT AND HEAL BECAUSE OF IT. FEEL THE FEELINGS...ITS OK .....CATHOLIC OR NOT..... JESUS ALSO FELT ANGER. WHAT IVE LEARNED IS TO "OWN" MY ANGER. MY ANGER BELONGS TO ME AND IT IS OK TO FEEL IT. NOONE CAN ...MAKE.....YOU FEEL ANGER.( THAT ONE TOOK ME A LONG TIME TO LEARN!!!!!!) BUT ANGER DOES HELP YOU TO HEAL. {{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}JANET

[pjinokeechobee]

I agree with the you are going through an anger period how long ago was the reliquishment? That could have alot to do with the degree of anger. When you reliquesh your rights you go through many many emotions no one emotion is easier than the other how you deal with them is the key. And it never fails eceryone gets pregnant at the same time. That doesn't make it easier. I to deal with my anger and sadness would find a quiet place scream cry yell what ever I felt like doing. I took up hobbies sounds crazy but it worked for me. Talking about it too! I talked to anyone who would listen I tried to find supportive people not negative people they tend to make it worse or make you out the bad guy when there is no good or bad guy it is simply emotions running amuck! This forum is a great place to talk vent get advice because there are so many different opinions and there is always someone who has been there or is there so you are never alone. Good luck to you! You said you were raised catholic then pray about it. Put yourself in his hands it will all work out!!!!