[jeniferL7]

I have very few letters that I wrote to my daughter after placing her for adoption. She is now 7. I regret not getting her cards every year. My thought was there, to buy cards and/or gifts on these special occasions... and keep them for when I possibly meet her someday. But I always felt weird about it, and never followed through.
I recently came to the realization that I really haven't moved on since the adoption. I have been lying to myself, to help ease the pain. But really I haven't enjoyed anything since. I only recently started looking into going back to school (some college courses) and things I was always interested in, but never did. Nothing has ever stopped me, but me! I realize, that only I limit what I can do! No one else! I never thought enough of me, to think I could really do it! One of the reasons for the adoption was because I was so young! And had my life ahead of me... but for 7 years I haven't done anything with it!
To get back on the main topic here... I really regret not doing anything for her over the years, whether it gets sent or saved for a later date. I don't know what to do now! Start now? When I see her later on... I don't want her to think I wasn't caring for her, or loving her all those years I never even wrote a card! It's just the opposite! Not sure what to do.... if anything...

Jenifer

[Brwneyedgrl321]

I think it would be better to start later on the letter and stuff than to never start at all. and from your post it sounds like that you would reget it if you never started writing letters.

brown eyes