[Patty-cake]

I guess I had an over developed sence of guilt. I also couldn't get it through my head that I didn't have a 28 day cycle. So even though we always used birth control (contraceptive foam) by day 29 every month I thought I was pregnant for 3-7 days until I got my period.

The night I got pregnant we had already broken up. I was wanting to patch things up/ and he said he just wanted to "talk" one thing led to another... he said we wouldn't actually do it... he said he'd stop... The really stupid thing was that I had the foam in my purse on the bed. I knew that night that I was most likely pregnant and we were for sure over.

When I found out from the doctor (there were no home tests back then) I packed up to leave. I knew that mentally I couldn't deal with what eventually happened- adoption. I have always loved babies and children. I knew there wasn't going to be a marriage. I didn't want an abortion. I didn't have a plan but I just wanted to go away have my baby and raise her.

I was scared to stay and scared to leave. I left and came home the same night.

[kakuehl]

Hard to say what my first thoughts were. I didn't take a test - for about 5 months I just kept telling myself I'd get my period soon! Denial is an incredible thing.

[karolanne]

I was married and told for 6 years prior to that I couldn't have children due to several medical problems on my end. I was devastated when I was told i couldn't have children. Married and literally just weeks later. I find out I am pregnant. I sat and cried. ESTATIC to be pregnant. Married (and due for a period my wedding week) A week later I take a test At six weeks along I lost the baby and on Mother's day at that. I cried wondering why me....? All I ever wanted was a family.... (still waiting SIGH)


Hannah
four angels in heaven (3 pregnancies)
~waiting for a baby through adoption~