[taramayrn]

Originally Posted by sneezyone

My first logical, coherent thought was weeks later - something along the lines of who am I kidding?!?! There is no way in hades that I'm going to permanently hitch my wagon to BF's horse; I want more darnit!

Good for you girl!!!

[katieleigh10]

My first thought was "how the hell am I going to tell Austin, he's going to $hit. Then my next thought was, there is no way I can tell my mom..then the test can't be right, I'm so not pregnant"...

[Kitti]

My very first thought was "Oh my God, there is life growing inside me" That in itself was an awesome thing for a 15 year old girl to try and grasp. I spent the day thinking of the responsibility I had now because this little life was affected by everything I did. When I told my boyfriend(17 yrs old) later on that afternoon he just stared at me for a few minutes and then asked if I felt ok. He and I then decided to keep it to ourselves as long as possible because we knew our parents would flip and try to make us abort. We spent most of the night lying on the couch at his house watching TV but not really paying attention cause we were a little shell shocked.He just kept telling me he loved me and everything would be ok. That night I really felt like it would be ok.
Kitti

[lollie78]

I have been pregnant three times, all on birth control. Surprise, surprise I stopped having sex. I was engaged when I got pregnant with my 6 year old. He said abortion, I said goodbye. A year later I was being stupid and had an abortion. Then a year after that, I thought I was in another good relationship. I found out on valentine's day not only that I was pregnant (Dr. got an earfull) and that he was cheating on me. None of the pregnancies were planned or wanted. I am single and have been for 5 years. I am having a hysterectomy in 2 months so.....................I am done having kids. I finally got it right with the last child.

[Free_to_be_me]

When the condom broke, my boyfriend actually said "I hope none of the little me's meets a little you." Hmmm. Wonder what would have happened if I had known about the morning after pill?

So, on the first day that my period was supposed to come, I was in the bathroom about a thousand times...checking, hoping, pleading with a God that I wasn't really sure I believed in...

A couple months later (when I still hadn't gotten my period) I was in the doctor's office for a pulled muscle in my arm. He wanted to do an x-ray, but there was a big green sign that said "If you are pregnant, or suspect you may be pregnant, tell your doctor before the x-ray." So, I told him, took the test (which surprised me for some reason. I guess I just figured he would send me home and tell me to wait and see if my arm got better on its own. It didn't even occur to me when I told him I might be pregnant that I would end up finding out for sure. If I had had it my way, I would have continued to be maybe pregnant until I delivered! Can we say hopeful denial?)

Anyways, I peed in the cup, about five minutes later he came back and said to me, a sobbing 17 year old, "Congratulations, you're pregnant. We don't do abortions here, but I will get you information and a referral. Have you told your parents?" When I said I didn't want to referral and no, I hadn't told my parents he told me "I'll call them this afternoon and let them know."

I argued with him, but wasn't sure if he would tell them or not, so I told them that evening.

[onceisenough11]

Originally Posted by Tigger27

I took that pregnancy test in the bathroom at a public library, that was an experience. Anyway, I just remember thinking, what am I going to do this time when I saw the positive pregnancy test results.

I took my pregnancy test in the bathroom of a Dollar General using one of their 1 dollar tests. The woman's restroom was out of order so in my irrational state I went into the men's. I had just gotten done when I heard knocking and a little boy wanted in. I was mortified and mumbled "I am so sorry..." and flew out. I didn't even look at the test until I was leaving the store. Then I saw the little blue line and was like, "Oh my GOD!!"

[Gigimom]

as I recall my exact thought was "oh, sh**"
I was 19 and living with the bdad and it was one of those,
we should have broken up a long time ago kind of relationships. Being pregnant really clouded everything.
For me, it was like some kind of emotional super glue and made me all the more determined to stay together and "make" him love me and see how worthy I was . Sick and sad.
When I got pregnant again (same guy) when my bdaughter was only 6 mo. old I was just numb with disbelief and very angry -at myself, at him, at god, at life. I was a mess.

[opalwench]

*Gulp*

That was that. We'd had hunches, it was really mostly a formality.

Actually all the test did really was get me to face reality mainly. Because I think, in my heart, I'd known for a couple of months at that point. My boyfriend says he'd had thought maybe so for almost 5 months.

I remember the second thing I thought was "Get Jeff in here now." I was at a CPC and they'd taken me off into a little side room to talk to me and for the test and all I wanted was him to be there holding my hand and hugging me right then.

[numbr1dbcksfan]

Oh, I'll bet... what a place to confirm.

That had to be hard... how far along were you?

[msdesi]

Edit to keep on track:

I was happy at first, feeling sad and hopeless later due to circumstance.

Sorry...I get talkative.

[numbr1dbcksfan]

So your first thought was that you were happy...

Sorry it turned out the way that it did, that is rough.

(Just wanted to isolate that first thought to keep the thread on track, thank you for sharing )

[opalwench]

Originally Posted by numbr1dbcksfan

Oh, I'll bet... what a place to confirm.

That had to be hard... how far along were you?

This was last Wednesday, and I haven't gotten in with the doctor but we think I'm somewhere around 7 or 8 months. We were late confirming for really complex reasons, including a large dose of denial on my part.

[numbr1dbcksfan]

Well, I hope you are able to enjoy the rest of your pregnancy.. and remember that first responses dont have to be final responses. ((HUG))

[tyiakoum]

with my twins, i was thinking, what? as i was being wheeled into emergency surgery. I did not know I was pregnant. i was kind of delusional, thinking i was not going to lose the girls because i was wicked young (21). so then i thought, oh no... he's a drinker, gambler, and loves to run with the boys. what will i do now?

god had different plans for me and i lost the girls. however, i can definitely see me in all likelihood choosing adoption for the girls. i was not in a good place at the time, working 3 jobs, living w/roomies, somewhat deadbeat boyfriend. i had no real supports (my family might have supported me but i had bigger aspirations at that time than being "mom", i think). i did want to start college but was not sure how to start or how to finance it. after the girls died, i figured it out really fast and never looked back.

they galvanized changes in my life that i am forever grateful for. i do regret them not being born into this world and placed in loving arms, so much. and now that i am older, wiser, waaaay more-educated (with two masters, who knew????), and infertile due to the trauma of their birth, would i have decided to keep them had they not died?

i truly don't think so. the bf was a disaster. he is now married w/children and hasn't changed one iota though he is a good provider, he is never home.

i would never have had the opportunity to totally switch gears from being a lowly data entry clerk to having a writing career. i would not have been able to find the time (especially w/twins) to start school, let alone finish it.

[Shellikin]

I started suspecting... I was tired, I had a "cold" for about a month, I started having very specific cravings for food. But I couldn't be pregnant, I was on the shot and it had worked for me for the last six years. I ignored it for about a month, until I decided to take the test... which I took in a Denny's bathroom, while a friend waited at the table where we were eating breakfast.
When it showed "pregnant" there was a moment of sheer panic... then I calmed down, got back into a rational mode of thinking.