[Maralee1987]

Hello forum friends,

I want to give you an update and let you know that this will be my last visit to these forums. I had been on bedrest for several days with extremly high blood pressure and what turned out to be contractions. I wound up in the hospital and the OBGYN did everything possible to stop me from being in labor, but the baby was stillborn Monday night. I feel kind of numb, but also very sad. The social worker at the hospital referred me to a therapist who deals with grief issues and I am meeting with her twice a week which I hope will help. My family has been very supportive, although when my ex, the baby's father, heard the news he said it was for the best which made me want to vomit. Even though I didn't know the baby, and I was not planning on keeping the baby, I still am very, very, very sad at the life that will not be lived. It is hard to understand why God would want to give me this baby and then take the baby away so early.

The hospital staff asked me if I wanted to see or hold the baby but I couldn't do it. They did take pictures that my mom is holding onto for me in case I want to see them at some point. There are ladies who make little, tiny hats and blankets for extreme preemie babies and so they dressed my baby and wrapped the baby up. I did not want to know if the baby was a boy or girl though my mom knows so she will tell me if I want to know. I'm just not ready to think about that yet, it is to hard.

I would like to express my sincere thanks to everyone who offered support and especially prayers. I hope that everyone here finds the peace and support and information that I did when I came here with so many questions and so few answers.

God bless you all and take care,
Maralee

[dl]

Maralee1987 ~ Just wanted to say I am so very sorry for your loss. Take care ~ you will be in my prayers. (((HUGS))) ~dl

[HappyTwinsMom]

I'm so terribly sorry for your loss.

[sugarbabysmommy]

I am so very sorry for your loss. Take good care of yourself. Peace to you.

[Big Dreamer]

Maralee words can not express how sad I am for you.

We will never know why some things happen no matter where you go or what you do this precious little soul will always be a part of your heart.

Please take time to morn him/her. You will need to walk through the fire in order for the true healing to take place.

You DESERVE to be happy and you DESERVE to be loved. Let those in your life rally around you. Let their love carry you as you go through this difficult time.

Peace be with you.

I will miss you and will think of you often.

If you ever want to drop by we would like to know how you are doing.

Hugs, hugs and lots more hugs,
Maria

[flowerchildA]

Maralee, I am so sorry for your loss.

-Amber

[crick]

I'm very sorry for your loss. Please take care of yourself and take your time to grieve.

Hugs to you,
Crick

[Montraviatommyg]

Can't begin to understand how you feel so all I can put is take care of yourself and sorry to read about your loss.

Pip

[Poolside]

I will keep you in my prayers as you greive over this loss. What a tragedy. Use your support system, it sounds like they all love you and want to protect you from harm.
Peace be with you..

[mommieof2cuties]

I am so sorry for your loss, I am glad your mom saved the stuff as that will help you down the road. It sound like you have a good support system and again sorry you had to go through this.

God Bless,
Summer

[GregDeanna]

Maralee,

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I hope you are doing ok and will continue to pray for you. It was so nice to chat with you and I am going to miss that. If you ever want to talk, you have my email address. God Bless.