[kat2560]

Hey Jackie,
I just read your response to my last deal about SS#. Your right about people changing things and messing with peoples lives. The state is great about it. Alot of the case workers are book smart, they don't know anything about dealing with real life. I worked with a girl at a restraunt as a waitress, while she was studing to be a caseworker for the state. She didn't have children, and she didn't have any patience with kids either. Yet she was making straight A's in her class. To me that's very scary. Yes I am hanging in there, its hard at times, but I know in my heart when the time is right I will find my son, and we will be back together. Later

Kat2560

[Jackiejdajda]

Your right about people changing things and messing with peoples lives. The state is great about it. Alot of the case workers are book smart, they don't know anything about dealing with real life.

You can not learn about this stuff in a book.. Can you.. I have read pages on the net that tell social workers on how to ‘counsel’ women considering giving a baby up.. some of it is very scary..

I worked with a girl at a restraunt as a waitress, while she was studing to be a caseworker for the state. She didn't have children, and she didn't have any patience with kids either. Yet she was making straight A's in her class. To me that's very scary.

The sponsor in twelve steps has walked the walk.. and they know.. I knew when I sponsored in Alanon.. I knew what it was like to have an acting out loved one.. and I could say words that did not have an agenda.. or I hope they did not have an agenda.. a judgment..

Yes I am hanging in there, its hard at times, but I know in my heart when the time is right I will find my son, and we will be back together.

This is what happened with me.. Thirty five years.. and it happened.. and it was the right time.. He had talked with no one from the CC agency or even his aparents.. he just connected with me because he had looked at his children and wanted to know more..

Jackie

[kat2560]

Hey Jackie,
I don't know for sure yet, but I may have found my son. I was on myspace looking at all the pictures, I found one that looked like my son, the facial features, the smile, I feel that it is him. I sent him a message and I am waiting to see if he responds to me or not. I am very nervouse about it, and at the same time I am very excited too. Does that make sense?

kat2560

[Jackiejdajda]

I sent him a message and I am waiting to see if he responds to me or not. I am very nervouse about it, and at the same time I am very excited too. Does that make sense?

I hope and pray it is him.. and yes I know this one..
The first email I got from my bson was one that said I could not be who I am but maybe I was and the names were not the same.. etc etc..

I did not sleep that nite..

Jackie

[kat2560]

Hey Jackie,
My husband looked at the picture yesterday, he said there was some things that didn't look right and he didn't think it was him. I started to get upset, he told me he didn't mean to burst my bubble, I know that it may not be him, and yet I pray that it is. I haven't heard anything from him yet. The waite is the hardest part, I read all these stories and I know that it is just as hard on the children as it is on us. Another reason that my husband doesn't think its him, is because this boy is from North Caralina, My husband still thinks he is still in Kansas. I don't know. I am fighting with the state on trying to find out what his last name is. They won't release the name because his sister is only 15 yrs old and they were adopted together, I was told friday that I have to waite until she turnes 18 yrs old before I can have their last name, I got really upset and told Tina that it isn't fair to Johnathon Lee to have to waite, since he is already 18 yrs old, in Kansas he is considered an adult, it should be his dicision on whether to have contact or not. Was I in the wrong for feeling this way?