[daddysangel]

Hi everyone,
I have never posted here,but feel a need to.Why? Who knows.I will not tell our story here just how it has effected us and ask for your guidedince and prayers.We have posted our situation on failed and contested.So far it is still going ok for us.The way this has effected us just blows me away.Back when I was in my early 20's God revealed himself to me (because of many self indused problems) and I have never looked back.Am I a Christian? According to the dictionary I would be.All I know is that there is no one in this world that could ever convince me that there is no GOD.When I met my wife her believe was unsure.We were told that we could not have children and I told her to pray and if it was god's will it would happen.5 yrs later it did.She does believe now but her faith has been tested more severly then mine through this ordeal and she sunk into depression and seeked counsiling and is much better now.She stays away from this sight because she says that she needs to enjoy our daughter and forget about what is going on and this sight reminds her of it.I can understand that and I can see GOD working with her through this and so can she.I on the other hand have been effected in a whole different way.When this all started I could not bring myself to believe that GOD blessed us with our 1st daughter just to take her away 8 yrs later.Our 2nd daughter is biological.My thoughts moved to OK what are you doing and where are you taking me now.I still believe our angel will remain with us and that there is something GOD wants me to do or my wife to do or both of us to do.I can not believe I am saying this but I think he wants us to adopt again.Our situation is not even over yet and I can not help but think that there may be a child out there that we could give a chance at a good life to.Am I wrong? Am I being insensitive to my wife? How long should I wait to tell her that I think we may have to do this again?What we are going through is almost bankrupting us,but yet we still have what we need.I know if I tell my wife she will jokingly say "Are you nuts,after what we have gone through and we can not afford to do this again".I also have a strong feeling of making sure that another child will not have to go through what our's is.Maybe that is what HE wants.I don't know,but HE put me writing this post so maybe HE will give one of you the insight to direct me.
Thank you all and may God Bless.