[etaag]

We are 5 months waiting, no referals. Contact has been very minimal from the state. We are certified foster/adopt 2 children ages 5-12. I had been very sure that this was God's chosen path for us to walk. Now, I am beginning to doubt. I have always said that even if we were never chosen, we have walked this way for a reason. We have used much of the information we learned. Maybe that is all that was needed from us. But, the human part of me must say that I am a getting a little depressed over not making any progress yet again, not being chosen yet. It took 3 1/2 months for our homestudy to be read and us to be certified, we just hung in limbo waiting. Now we wait some more.....

Please pray for our family to have reassurance and peace in what He has planned for us. I know to trust in Him, His plans for us are greater than our own.

I know many of you are in the same place...waiting, wondering, second doubting... If this is not meant for our family right now, I pray that we will find out quickly, so we can close the door and move on.

I feel so weak somedays, like I am in need of a big flashing sign saying "This Way, Melissa!". I wish my faith never waivered, that I had the strength not to second guess what the Holy Spirit is trying to tell me.

Sorry to ramble, just one of those days.....

Melissa

[mommatomm&m]

I know nothing to say except I am sorry that you are going through this difficult time. What we learn in the darkness may we speak in the daylight. Cleave to Him Melissa...let Him guide you through this journey and know that He loves you. I will be praying for you sweet sister in Christ. Praying for peace and understanding. r

[2Bulgarianbeauties]

My most used prayer though my two adoptions:

Light the path so that I may see it, and give me the courage to take it.

Once I saw the path, I kept praying - OK, I am going through this door, if it is not right, please stop me somehow!

I understand, and will say a prayer for you.

Kay

[roselee]

I will be praying for you. Usually people don't hear anything for a while. Five months to me is nothing. I would definitely talk with your Case Worker for that confirmation. I don't believe God gives us that desire for no reason at all. There is a reason why you have that desire. Continue to listen for God's voice and be in his word. He will show you the way.

God bless

[mylovebug]

Just remember that his timing is not always our timing. It took us 11 months after we completed our homestudy and I didn't expect that, but there was a situation that took place during our daughters first 10 months or so and then she was placed with us and of course I would love to have had her from the beginning however I am just so glad to have her now. Don't lose hope because when your children are placed in your arms that few months of a wait will seem like nothing. We will keep you in our prayers and you never know it could be right around the corner. I asked for prayer at church on a Sunday because our homestudy would expire inless than 2 weeks and it was the VERY NEXT DAY that I got the phone call. So just spend this time getting yourself prepared and be ready, you never know.

[etaag]

Thank you so much for your prayers and words of wisdom. Some days I believe satan just plants thoughts of discouragement in my head. I shouldn't allow these thoughts even a moments chance to stay. I have prayed about it and am feeling much better. Look how long Abraham and Sarah waited....5 months is barely even a blink. I know that you all here on the forum know how your emotions can fluctuate from one extreme to the next. There was absolutely no doubting in the beginning that this was what we are suppose to do, and wanted to do. I need to remember that on the difficult days, and trust in him.


Thank you all again,

God Bless each of you and your families.

Melissa

[roselee]

I have been through so much this year that I realize that if we stray for even a day, the results could be drastic...although God can turn everything around for good.

You are right, Satan will attack throughout this entire process. Boy do I know that. The thing that has helped me through is my bible study group, other church members along with others experiencing the same thing.

Intellectually we know about "taking up our cross daily and following him," but the ways of the world just seem to get in the way and distract us, cause doubts, bring fears, etc...all from Satan...

I believe that Satan doesn't want you to adopt because you would be planting seeds in your future child/children's lives for them to be used by God. The spiritual warefare that you will most likely experience through this process may be severe!!

I didn't stay grounded enough through the process, so I am just praying that you do!

God bless