[paperchasingmom]

Or so it seems....

We've just gotten word from our attorney here in the states that her advice to us is for us to "abandon our adoption attempt" for our baby girl, Brianna, that is waiting for us in the Philippines....

It seems as if the attorney in the Philippines that we have hired and already paid for is trying to do something that isn't going to work....

My main concern right now is for Brianna and her future....she is so happy where she is right now with my best friend's family....it was the perfect place for her to be until we came to get her, until her adoption was processed and finalized....

Now, my only prayer, as it has always been, is for Brianna's best interest and her future and for her to have the perfect family she so desperately needs....

My hope now is that my best friends sister, the woman there in the Philippines who has cared for Brianna since her birth, my hope is that she will be able to adopt her.....

Brianna is thriving there and is so happy and is loved by so many over there.....

If she can't be with us, then she needs to stay with them....

Today is Brianna's one month birthday and they are having a little birthday party for her....a party for a little girl, who at this point in time, has no true family and no permanent home....and quite possibly will be ripped from the only family she has known and taken into an orphanage...

God help us all....

But even in the midst of this, I still want to be grateful to our Heavenly Father...To God be the Glory, always and forever!

I love you Jesus and nothing will ever stop me from loving you...Satan can never make me stop loving you no matter what he tries to do to me and my family.....I will praise you Lord till my dying day and into eternity...

Thank you Jesus for what you are going to do....we pray and thank you for your blessings, always and forever....and we thank you for finding Brianna the perfect home!!! Amen

Melody

[faith_amom]

I'm sorry that you are having to go through this. It sounds like you have a rock solid faith in God, which I hope will help to ease your pain. Know that God is walking beside you through all of this and that He is a plan in mind for you.

Take care,

- Faith

[Judilyn]

I am sorry for your pain. Jesus is the mender of broken hearts. I will be praying that His perfect will is done in your life and Brianna's. Remember that Jesus loves our children even more than we do.

Hold on to your Faith

Judilyn

[CocoCapo]

Melody,
I know you are experiencing pain in this situation with little Brianna but I want to reassure you that God really does have an awesome plan through all of this if you truly seek after His will to be done. He will bless you even more than you could have imagined. I know because I have seen this happen in my life many times, but especially when it came to the adoption of our children.
When my husband and I were first ready to adopt, we were introduced to a foster mom who had 2 beautiful little sisters (Jessica aged 1 1/2 and Torrey 6 mos) that she was trying to find a good home for. We offered to baby sit them for free whenever she wanted. We babysat them many times over the next year and developed a very strong attachment to them. We really felt like God had brought them into our lives so that we could be their parents. When it was getting close to the time that the girls' birth parents' right to them was going to be terminated and we could finally start the proceedings to adopt them, the foster mom dropped a bomb on us and told us that SHE had decided to adopt them instead. This shocked us because not only was she in her 60's but she also had a very rare form of cancer which had no known cure! Our family and all our freinds prayed and prayed that the county would decide to place the girls with us but, after many agonizing months, they decided to allow her to adopt them. We were emotionally crushed, but we continued to trust in God's plan for us.
Very soon after that, we got "the call" that there were twins available for adoption and they had selected us. We adopted the twins (Isaiah and Tatiana) and felt like our family was complete. Three years after Isaiah and Tatiana had become part of our family, we heard through a Christian friend that the foster mom of Jessica and Torrey was very sick and that she had put them back into foster care! As soon as we found out, my husband and I contacted the Health Services Dept. and let them know that we were interested in adopting them. About 6 months later, the girls that we had prayed and prayed for became part of our famly!!! The total blessing in all of this is, not only did we get the two girls that we had originally wanted, but we also gained two wonderfull twins as well that we never would have known about if we had gotten Jessica and Torrey 3 years earlier!
I'm sorry this is so long, but I wanted to share with you that God will give us the desire of our hearts but not always in the timing that we would prefer. He always knows what's best for us and will bless us immensely if we don't take matters into our own hands and mess things up!
I hope this has encouraged you.

[paperchasingmom]

Thank you all for your kind thoughts and your picture is beautiful...you are so blessed and thank you for sharing your personal journey....

My husband and I are still trying relentlessly to adopt little Brianna...we thought we had good news recently, but now again, things do not look good...another month has passed and we are so in love with our little girl--we have her crib and her room ready just for her!!!!

We're halfway finished with our homestudy and we're realizing it's been 2 months now since she was born and so much time has been wasted....and we're really nowhere close to even getting the right answers we so desperately need.....

So much time and so much money already for no answers....I truly do not know what to do as our money is running out, but we're keeping the faith and praying all will be well...at this point, things would be so much harder to walk away from....I can't even fathom that....

I am trying to find God's will in this....why would He have let us know about this child and have the birthmother PICK US only to not be able to have her....

This attorney in the Philippines, Reynaldo Bernardo, told us we could adopt her legally and we paid him in full already...and now, we're finding out the government doesn't allow this....what they shouldn't allow is attorney's to lie to you and take your money...especially over something as life-changing as this...we're talking about a little baby here and a family that already loves her deeply...everyone loves her...not just us, our parents, brothers, sisters, everyone....so many people would be terribly hurt by this....and why????

I would not wish this on anyone....this is so terrible....it would have been so easy to just do all this paperwork for a regular, international adoption and then just wait for a child....but here, we have this child already that we're fighting for.....

Why would God give us this child only to have to give her up?????

If it's His will, I'll abide by it, but it will crush us....and I would never understand it....but I know, there's some things that aren't known until we get to Heaven....

With all that we've been through, this would be the worst....but, we'll accept it as God's will, if we have too....

Melody

[faith_amom]

I am trying to find God's will in this....why would He have let us know about this child and have the birthmother PICK US only to not be able to have her....

Why would God give us this child only to have to give her up?????

Melody,

Hold onto Romans 8:28:

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

God is working for good, even though it really hurts right now. Perhaps God's calling for you in the future will be to provide support to women who suffer through failed adoptions. Who would be in a better position than you are to offer the love and support that those women will need? Since you have been there, you "get it," and God can turn this incredible hurt into a powerful ministry on His behalf. Other women can find healing in your wounds.

The one thing I do know is that God is working for good and that one day you will look back and say, "Aha. So THAT'S why." And that moment may very well happen in this lifetime. It might be that, by this falling through, God will bring you the child He has in mind for you to raise, a child you would never be matched w/otherwise.

God is good, and He loves you. He is catching every tear, and He hurts with you. But, rest assured, good will come from this.

Hang in there.

- Faith