[Jody M]

Encouraging, Thanks for sharing with us about your daughter and your love and longing for her. It is beautiful how you have been able to give her over into the care and provision of her heavenly Father's care and protection. Your prayers for her are the most wonderful gift you can give her. Oh, how so many adoptees would be so touched and blessed if they knew their birth moms prayed for them. May the Lord fill you to overflowing with His peace and assurance that He has your daughter safe in His arms. For He alone is the good, loving and gentle Shepherd.

God bless, Jody

[ssshhh]

I felt a need tonight to go back and read the posts. Maybe to help me remember that God is in this adoption so that I do not take control and try to have my own way.
Since my birthdaughters birthday in January there has been no contact. I know she received the letter I wrote and gift because the agency told me she did.
Her parents have told the agency that they would be sending pics. The agency was under the impression a month ago that I had received them. The agency then called again and they said they were busy but would get on it and send pics and a letter. I am now thinking that they will not be sending anything. My birthdaughter probably does have hurt feelings and has probably felt the same way I do now. Not a great feeling.
After reading posts about myspace on this site I decided to see if she had an account. I found her in less than a minute.
I know it is wrong but I want to email her sooooo bad.
I left communication up to her and now I am wanting to take it all back for my own selfish reasons.
She is happy and healthy. Her myspace is awesome and
she has a lot of people who love her in her life. I learned more about her than I would have in a letter! I need this to be enough for me right now. Not push my will off onto her. I know that God knows when we will communicate. Be it through letters or meeting. I need to be content.
I guess we all have days of weakness. Thank God I could come back here and post and reread these great posts. Thanks.

[shef]

dear ssssh.....thankyou for coming and sharing your hearts struggles to have your own communication with your daughter......I felt I wanted to come and just respond in some way....I know that intense feeling of trying to find out things anyway one can about the person you so much want to see or talk with......the internet is so uselful and helpful, and instant...but at times it can feed and fuel the ache in our hearts for the more info we get, we find we can not satisfy the fire that burns an dis fuelled, though we know it should be "enough2 for present....I had to back off searching on the internet in orde to get my own space and deal with things inside of me and let it settle and give God time to work.....its not easy at all......to wait and wait.....but God knows where you are....and though at times I dont like hearing...Gods timing is right....it is true......and i will pray for you in this conflict and struggle......and may you know peace and a rest that is supernatural in this very natural desire of yours as a mom......bless your heart.

shefalie

[ssshhh]

I truely and honestly "let go and let God" last week. I felt it in my heart. I believed in my heart that God had a plan and I was just slipping back into that old shortcoming of impatience. I have been feeling a lot better about the whole situation.
Well.....God has a sense of humor.
Today, the agency called me and my birthdaughter had sent a letter. The letter was addressed to my worker, so it has been sitting there while she was on vacation all last week!
I am sitting here looking at pictures of my birthdaughter.
She is so beautiful! She sent a beautiful letter and wants to include me in her life. I am so blessed!
She is not angry. She is so grown up!
I can only say that God has made me very aware of why contact was not made in my time. Even a month ago would have been too soon. Thank you everyone for the prayers.

[mrsred]

Oh, shhh, I am so happy for you! You were like the Israelites, wandering the desert for 40 years, doubting and working against God, but as soon as you let go He came through for you! God is SO GREAT!

[Jody M]

Sshhh! Rejoicing with you at this wonderful time in your life! God's timing is perfect and I am so thrilled to hear that your birth daughter wants contact! Enjoy this exciting time and we are here so keep sharing! Bless you today!
Thanks for sharing! Hugs, Jody, adoptee

[longingtomeetyou]

[quote=Jody M]Thanks Shef for sharing your journey of healing in adoption and how you have come to see that you birth mother made a decision in your best interest- not to harm you. It is so freeing to let go of wrong perceptions and embrace the truth. What birth mother truly despised her baby in the womb- what they found impossible is the circumstances that the pregnancy put them in. Years ago there was little to no support for an unwed mother to choose to be a single parent- little counseling, few resources or encouragement or Care Net centers that offered counseling, and mentored women through the pregnancy, birth and parenting and helped them with their schooling and or finances or gave them diapers, food or found housing for them. Its a whole different world now. Also families and society were very judgemental to birth parents who found themselves in these situtations- such shame visited the families and their chuches. Where people should have extended grace and godly counsel there was often judgment and apathy.



so true!

[longingtomeetyou]

Originally Posted by ssshhh

I truely and honestly "let go and let God" last week. I felt it in my heart. I believed in my heart that God had a plan and I was just slipping back into that old shortcoming of impatience. I have been feeling a lot better about the whole situation.
Well.....God has a sense of humor.
Today, the agency called me and my birthdaughter had sent a letter. The letter was addressed to my worker, so it has been sitting there while she was on vacation all last week!
I am sitting here looking at pictures of my birthdaughter.
She is so beautiful! She sent a beautiful letter and wants to include me in her life. I am so blessed!
She is not angry. She is so grown up!
I can only say that God has made me very aware of why contact was not made in my time. Even a month ago would have been too soon. Thank you everyone for the prayers.

oh wow hon im so excited for you

what a blessing to be looking at your daughters picture AND that she wants you in her life...Praise God

keep us posted if you have a reunion

[BrockBaby]

Shhh.... I am so happy for you!!! God does indeed work when we let go. Please keep us in the loop of what is going on.

I myself, have been out of the loop around here. I have had a lot going on. I am in a new relationship with a wonderful man of God. I am in total love, and even though it is soon, we both know that we are with our "forever person". It's an exciting time. (we are not rushing into anything...so don't get too concerned) I could totally relate with you on the letting go part. I went to Myrtle Beach alone and during that trip, I gave up a lot to God. I had finally put to rest my own ideas of how things should go. And amazingly, since then it seems like EVERYTHING is in motion. Tomorrow at one I go to have a face to face meeting with a social worker who is suppose to be giving me my non id. The neat thing is...I use to work with her about five years ago!!! So please say a prayer that all will go well!!!!!! I am hoping for some good, solid information. I know I can't expect her to do anything that would put her job in jeopardy...but hopefully I can get my bmoms first name!!!!

Hope all is going well with everyone else!!!!

[PastorStephanie]

Baby Brock~ I will definately be thinking of you and praying for you tomorrow! What a huge step! How exciting and what a struck of "luck" to be meeting with a social worker you know from elsewhere! I really hope it all goes well for you.

[Peggysue]

BrockBaby, I'm so pleased for you re your new man. God bless, Peggysue

[BrockBaby]

Well guys SOOOOOOOO MUCH has happened in less than a week!!! I have found my birthfamily!!!!!!!!! I only have a quick sec. but I wanted to share that news. I will post the whole story later!!!! I'd appreciate any prayers for this amazing and overwhelming time. GOD truly had HIS hand in all of this!!!!!!

God bless!

[Peggysue]

Hi BrockBaby.

Fantastic news!! I will pray for you and hope all goes well. Is this an encouragement for us all to "let go and let God"?

Peggysue

[PastorStephanie]

BabyBrock!! How exciting for you! Can't wait to hear the whole story!

[ssshhh]

Wow BrockBaby, that is great!
I have been following all your posts and replies.
It is so awesome that you found your birthfamily. I am
dancing for you!