[jane_mi]

Happy Mother's Day for current mothers and will-be-mothers!

Just recalled the bad dream on 2005's mother's day: After one week of listening to the my 6 vanpool friends reagrding mothers and kids (all are parents, one of them still has 95 years old mother), I cried so badly during my dream. In the dream I cried out that day was not for me! I had not been a mother after so many yeas trying and my mother passed away in 1993 before I left China.

Yesterday my DH asked me that if I wanted to celebrate the first mother's day after our LID, a happy smile appeared on my face. Finally I am able to put the unlucky feeling in behind! All the struggles I went through meant for me to be a better mother!

Happy Mother's day to all mothers in the world! Happy mother's day to my mother in heaven. She always forgave me for all bad things I did and should aslo already forgave me for not spending enough time with her and not able to provide her better before she left this world knowing me that I miss her so much! Thank you, my mother!

Jane
LID 4/12/07