[Janis Blake]

I have posted several other places on this website, I thought I posted here also but did not see it so this is another attempt. Your birth father is my older brother. He and his wife (your birthmom) lived in Bridgeport, Ct. for a year in 1960 and then moved back to California. You have two older brothers (eldest is deceased) and a younger brother and younger sister, now: all four are full siblings. Your adoption was handled through Catholic Charities of Fairfield County, Ct. For years, until fairly recently, you were a big family secret and to a large extent you still are. You tried to make contact with your birthmother at some point and she declined to meet with you. I am so sorry about that. Your birth parents are divorced and remarried to other people. I know your Dad wanted to start a search for you a few years ago and I think that is when he found out that your birthmom had been contacted. He pulled back his reins, I believe because of a pledge made to her when you were born, and has not pursued the search. He has told all 3 surviving siblings about you. This is not something I have yet discussed with my brother so I have very sketchy info. I'm working up the courage to speak to him about you! I picture you being born on that day in October and feel so sad and sorry for the circumstances surrounding your birth. I feel like you are my nephew and pray that some day we will all be reunited. My thinking is that if you wanted to find your birthmom and possibly family then you are the one to be considered now and you should be found. I know my brother is racked with guilt concerning you. I also question whether I am doing the right thing by searching for you. Maybe you would be better off not knowing us. But, deep in my heart I don't believe that. I want to know you. Anyway, this is very long. If you read this and think it could be you please respond. You can leave me a private message. I pray it will be so. Love, your Aunt Janis.