[monami7]

I posted this on my blog tonight and on the China site. I thought maybe you would want to see it.
Heidi

I never thought I would be sitting here without Rory tonight. Funny how the last year has changed so much. It will probably be another 6 months until I see her precious face. A year ago we were so excited. Going thru what we thought was our last Holidays without her.
Now a year later we know that there is nothing certain. Nothing except that God will make things turn out just perfect.
In May of this year, when we thought we would see Rory for the first time, I was looking online just playing around on adoption sites. And then I saw her. The most gorgeous child I had ever layed Eyes on. I know right then why the timing wasn't right for China yet. If we were at the place we thougt we would be I would not have found my Lilly. The bright spot in these past few months.
Even though this wait is hard and we want Rory home as soon as possible. I know that God intended for us to have both these beautiful angels. Just in his own time. We look forward to this next year with excitement and curiosity. I no longer think constantly of only what my experience in it will be but the experiences of my daughters. How they will have their lives changed this year in ways they could never have imagined. Sisters from aroound the world.
God will give each of us our beloved children in the time he has preparred. The thing I am most certain of is that they will be our children. Whenever they are home.

[saranbr]

I hope you get BOTH your little ones home soon!!! Seems like China is taking longer and longer...but this is not the first time. My girl friend and her DH ended up with a Russian and China adoption literally within weeks of each other because China slowed and Russia moved so quickly (this was four-five years ago). Those two were to have home comings about one year apart and ended up within a month of each other!

[ggman]

I can relate---

We thought for sure we'd have our Nico home for Christmas this year.

Like you, I do turst that God's timing is perfect, but boy, the wait is HARD!

I pray you get your Lilly home by Christmas... and just think of the celebrating you will be doing next year! (With TWO two year olds!!! Oh my word-- your hands will be full!!!) But it will be great.

More and more these days all I can think about is Nico. I love my daughter so much, but it just feels like a piece of our family is missing. Being pregnant right now makes me miss Nico all the more... I just want to have him home and get him all settled before our life is in the upheaval of a new baby.

I want his homecoming to be a signficant thing and not lost in excitement/activity of another new baby. I have plans to get our family portraits done as soon as Nico gets home and BEFORE the baby comes.... I just want him to know that there was a chunk of time when he was the new baby and didn't have to share that... know what I mean?

I think that's a positive thing about you getting Lilly before Rory-- even though they will likely be "virtual twins," they will each get a chance to be the "new baby."

Keep us posted on how your progress with 2nd legal/passports goes...

[ssmeest]

Oh I can SO relate!!!

In October 2004, I flew down to Guatemala to see our new son. He was 11 months old and we had started the process for him in Sept. 2004. We were told it would be a fast case and he'd be home for Christmas. Well Christmas came and went and no Jonathan. Come February 2005, we're told they can't find his birthmom to do the DNA. So the adoption stops. Then in May, we get the referral for our angel, Faith Marie who was 2 days old, only to be called back the next day saying they found Jonathan's birthmom, did we still want him too? Dumb question, OF COURSE. So we were told we'd have both of them home by Christmas. Well, Jonathan gets his DNA done July 2005, but the Embassy doesn't release it until January 2006!!! Meanwhile, Faith Marie's case is delayed because her mama with a minor whoe turned 18 during the process so we had to start all over with her. Faith Maire came home in April 2006.

We are STILL waiting for Jonathan!!! Over 2 years. There is no explanation other than the courts are investigating his mother. We have not received photos since Jan. 2006 because the foster parents are mad at the attorney so they won't bring him for pictures. It is SO frustrating emotionally, let alone the $$ involved. So we're in PGN and whenever I call, I'm told oh, he'll be out soon.

I'm starting to wonder if God is telling us that He doesn't want us to have Jonathan. The funny thing is, if that is God's plan, I'm alright with that. I just need to know one way or the other. This waiting and not knowing is driving me crazy.

Sending prayers that your two angels come home soon. Anytime anyone tells me how "Lucky" I am to have adopted instead of being pregnant and giving birth, I want to punch them. Mamas who haven't gone through the waiting can never know the heartache.

Thanks for letting me vent.

Blessings,
Sandra

PS - What does LID mean?