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I found myself standing at my back door today..
I was wathing the snow blow around as if it was sugar..

I kept thinking to myself...
I am finally home with my birthfamily.. My Birth Mother died 5 years before I came home.

She was born and raised in the same State (MN)..
She probably stood and watched the snow fall many times..

Did she see it the same way I do?? Did she think it was beautiful? I will never know her thoughts... I just wish that I could have had one day to spend with her...

I have heard we are much the same.. I have lost out on the time for being in her life..

I stood there at the back door and told her exactly how I felt about her, and I did not hold anything back.. Only She and I and the Creator knew what I was telling her...

I actaully admited that when I do get the chance to see her in the spirit world that I am going to walk right past her... I will not ackowledge her in death, since she did not ackowledge me in life...

I am still trying to heal after all these years... I would rather talk to a Stranger than talk to her in life...

Cricket/Susie