[Birthmomxs2]

Hi guys... Sorry I haven't done a usual post or two a day. Things have been.... stressed to say the VERY least.

Trisha and Daniel are brining Richard over to the states for his birthday this year, and it has me wringing my hands. He's only been in this country once, and that is when he was a newborn baby fresh from my tummy! I am hoping he will like it here, being as this is his first international trip. I'm not sure what I need to do to get this house ready for him! Any suggestions?

Me and my significant other have split. Found out one too many things about him that I didn't approve of and didn't know about until just recently. I didn't need that pile of stress added to my shoulders at this time so I simply gave him the boot and wished him well.

I've seen my attorney and he has tried getting in touch with Leigh's adoptive parents to find out a more in depth reasoning behind the closure of our agreement. Their attorney isn't answering his calls, and according to the agency, they are in the process of adopting a second child right now, so they really shouldn't be bothered, however they have spoken highly of me to the new birthmom showing off pictures of me and Leigh during a visit letting her know how involved I am... *gags* The poor girl.

Lately I've been overworking myself. I work in a bank as I have said before, but my department has access to the building 24/7. Some of us take advantage of that to get ahead in our work, and so I've been working twelve hour shifts. Anything to get my mind off what's going on around me and to try to move forward without looking back too much.

Well that's everything new for now.

Bella Marie

[BMlaurie]

Dearest Bella,

First of all i want to say hi! I haven't met you yet but i have read a few of your posts and you've certainly been through your share (as well as a few others) of hell. Wow, you're amazingly strong and i'm so sorry that you're having to experience these issues with your daughter's aparents. That has got to be every bmom's worst nightmare! I am incredibly glad that you have such a wonderful relationship with your son's parents. That's realy great to hear. I'd be really nervous about the visit as well. When was the last time that you saw him?

I was thrilled to hear that you got rid of Trouble before Trouble got the best of you...they come in such nice packages sometimes tho hey? Good for you for realizing that you don't need any more complications in your life. That's a hard thing to do, but i'm proud of you for staying strong. Right now i'm (shockingly) in a relationship with an amazing man but I realize that it's still very sugarcoated, i've been with him three months and i know there's an awful lot that i don't (know). Kinda worrysome (sp?) but i'm just taking it day by day, and keeping that guard mostly UP altho I'm not entirely sure that's always such a good thing. I don't have room for any more hurt or regrets in my life tho.

I think you're definitely working yourself MUCH too hard, my dear! I understand that it probably does help to take your mind off of alot of things that you'd rather not be thinkin about but don't wear yourself out Bella! Take a bath, go out with gf's, do something nice for yourself instead! Get a kitty! Haha, okay maybe only I do that...but i'm worried about you working too much!

Anyway i just wanted to send you my two cents (not sure the true value of that, but i AM Canadian so it can't be that much..haha) Hope you don't me saying hello. I look forward to getting to know ya

hugs,
Laurie