[SchmennaLeigh]

A finish the sentence kind of thread.

When I think of Our Adoption, I Feel _________.

Of course, and why.
Be honest about your feelings. And explain, to the best of your ability why you feel that way.

I'm going for one overall emotion but, as we know, adoption is complex, so if you must choose two (or more?), explain them all.

[Leigh131313]

anxious.


Leigh

[eagleskd]

Proud....


My boys are the light of my life...

[irish11970]

When I think about our adoption, it feels ..... bittersweet.

I am overwhelmed with joy every time I hold, feed,play, read. talk to, bathe,and cuddle Delaney. Then I think about how J must feel thinking about us doing these things, and it makes me sad. Then I go one step further and wonder how it would have been to have had an open adoption with my own birthdaughter, and I get confused. I wonder how she does it.
So bittersweet it is.
Great thread Jenna, as always, thought provoking!
Jenn

[mamacrina]

happy...dd is everything I could've and couldn't have dreamed.

anxious...waiting to finalize.

worried...about bmom. I;ve said this so much lately that it seems obsessive.

[SchmennaLeigh]

When I think of Our Adoption, I Feel torn.

I feel torn. I want to be happy that she is so awesome. (She is!) And that she is so loved. (She is!) And that our adoption actually WORKS. (It does!) But then I realize she would still be awesome and loved in my home. And I get sad, knowing I should still be happy. And so I teeter-totter back and forth. It's a weird place to be in, to know that you should be grateful what you have is good and works... but to still long for something else.

So, yes. I'm torn.

[Leigh131313]

I guess I should explain. I wrote that when I was tired, and actually thought it would be self explanatory...lol not.

First of all, I guess I get that panicky...should I be sending something soon feeling. Should we call them? Should we go for a visit? I worry that I am not doing enough..

then,
I'm so happy with our situation with ds and how wonderful his birthfamily is...I get anxious at the prospect of going through it again, can you win the lottery twice? that sort of thing.

Leigh

[taramayrn]

... torn and ambivalent (not toward my son just to clarify).

[AwaitingBeloved]

conflicted.

So happy for ourselves if we are to become parents.

Heartbroken that our happiness comes to the great pain of another person or couple.

[Tigger27]

bittersweet.

It's hard with my emotions and the grief and missing my girls, but I know I did what was right and best for them.

I'm so happy because I see how happy and good my girls are doing with each of their afamilies and I love their afamilies, but I also had to work through hard emotions and still do every year on their birthdays especially.