[BirthMom1991]

I am a birth mother of 2 beautiful little boys that I was forced to give up for adoption. My first husband used me for a punching bag then he threatened to beat my boys. I left a child in each arm and only enough clothes for 2 days. No place to go. No family that I could turn to. What solution did I have? I HAD to give my boys up for adoption. I had no other choice and to this day it breaks my heart NOT to have them with me. I choose open adoption AS I was promised 3 to 4 letters with pictures every year! (that ceased almost 5 years ago). I sent letters to the agency to be sent to the boys and even sent new mailing address and phone numbers everytime I moved and still NOTHING! I called the agency the other day and they "informed" me they LOST everything in a fire and had NOTHING backed up on computer or anthing. So I called the state capital to see what I could do and sadly I can do nothing. I have family medical issues that I need to get to the boys!!! And they are telling me I can not get it to them because everything is lost. I haven't been in that state in several years so I do not know how much of what they are telling me is true as when I called I was shuffled from one person to the next and talked to 10 people in less than 20 minutes. I have 4 younger children that KNOW I gave their big brothers p for adoption. The boys are now 13 and 12. I have to wait 5 more years before I can look for them and I think its sad that no one can find a way for me to get them the medical information that has arised in the last 4 years that they NEED to have. I have so much more to say but I am too emotional to continue so I will continue later.
Cath