[auntybop]

Im new at this so bare with me. im too lazy to capitalize and i cant type worth a sh--. im a birthmother. i placed my daughter 10 years ago due to my drug addiction. i stopped using and went to an open agency. i already had a 7year old. we went through counseling and placed my daughter,her sister with a couple that was willing to be open. to make a long story short ,i couldnt stay clean,she divorced. ive been clean 5 yrs now myself and my daughter were keeping steady contact with her until the adoptive mom got remarried. he adopted our daughter and now we dont hear from them. My biggest pain is that my daughter who is 18 now cant know her sister. this hurts me sooo much and the guilt is terrible .

[Jackiejdajda]

Auntybop

Im new at this so bare with me. im too lazy to capitalize and i cant type worth a sh--. im a birthmother. i placed my daughter 10 years ago due to my drug addiction.

I do not worry about my typing here on a.com.. I just do stream of thought writing.. I do not know where to punctuate a sentence.. so I don’t do it.. I just put in a few dots.. In some places I am known as dot dot Jackie..
I don’t mind.. I communicate and that is what is important..

i stopped using and went to an open agency.

I used to be a stoner.. Just the downers tho.. I don’t like the ones that really take over a body..
I tried coke once and did not like the coming down..

There are no rules with OA.. on terms of government intervention.. that is what some people try and get out when someone is considering an OA..

i already had a 7year old. we went through counseling and placed my daughter,her sister with a couple that was willing to be open. to make a long story short ,i couldnt stay clean,she divorced. ive been clean 5 yrs now myself and my daughter were keeping steady contact with her until the adoptive mom got remarried.

Congratulations on your five years.. and I am sorry that the life of your birthdaughter changed..

he adopted our daughter and now we dont hear from them. My biggest pain is that my daughter who is 18 now cant know her sister. this hurts me sooo much and the guilt is terrible

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Be careful of the guilt.. and nothing is written in all of this.. nothing is written..
When your birthdaughter is an adult she can decide who she connects with.. She decides who she wants to know..
Maybe your birthdaughter needs this time away from all of the situations of the relinquishment.. maybe she is having a hard time emotionally and the parents think she needs some time out.. who knows..

But reunion takes time.. and trusting is the main thing to do IMO..
Trust the journey.. and work through your guilt.. why you are feeling guilty..
Did you use a twelve step program when you got clean?

Jackie