[ssshhh]

I posted a thread a few weeks ago about needing counseling. I was having a lot of feelings coming back after my birth daughter turned 18.
Long story short, I was put on a waiting list to see a counselor at css. During this time all the birth mothers on this forum helped me a lot.
My first appointment was this past Monday. I felt so much more content after the first meeting knowing that I am by far not the only birthmom who has sought counseling through them when our birth children turn 18. I also discussed with my counselor not wanting to take any actions that may hurt my birth daughter or her parents. She gave me much insight on how they may be feeling too.
Tonight, I received a phone call! I talked with my birthdaughter and her mom for the first time in 10 years!
I was nervous, I am sure they were too. I would not change one thing about that call though!
I will continue with counseling during this time because I feel like God had a big hand in this since 3 days after seeing a counselor I received this call and was able to have a good conversation with my birth daughter and her mom. It was light and uplifting. I cried when her mom got back on the phone but reassured her it was tears of joy and thanked her for calling.
I hung up the phone and could not help but think God knew what was going to take place and he wanted me to talk to someone beforehand. I thanked him and feel content and serene. I do not think I would have these feelings if I had not talked with a counselor Monday.
I know we will have ups and downs but I see Gods love tonight and wanted to share it.

[julz12-13]

congrats!!! just remember, God wants to give us the desires of our hearts!!! i feel i have been living that since i met my bd. and how wonderful her mom is apart of your reunion. that should make your bd comfortable!!! good luck in your journey!!!

[kakuehl]

Ssshhh, Thank you for sharing your good news.

[StacyKelly2]

I am happy for you. Being an adoptive mom, I cannot imagine what a birth mom goes through by choosing adoption. Coming on these different boards gives me some insight. Our son's birth mom has just been absolutely wonderful throughout our whole adoption journey. We continue to communicate and we send pictures and updates. I cannot ever imagine shutting the birth mom out- She blessed us and answered our long awaited prayers of being "mommy" and "daddy"!! I witnessed first hand the love and courage it takes on that heartfelt and emotional delivery day. I could never ever forget what she done for us, and for her baby!!! Our son is 2 years old..and he will always grow up knowing the love of his birth mom- for us that is just too important!!! I am happy to see you are finding some peace. I wish you nothing but blessings...and I know the works of God ...I have an angel to prove His miracles can and do happen...God Bless

[longingtomeetyou]

excited for you in your reunion.....

[longingtomeetyou]

its really neat to see how God DOES give us the desires of our heart
imagine a father NOT giving the desires of childs heart

Gods love is sooooooamazing we can call on Him 24/7