[quantum]

Hi,
I just need a place to vent and you all have been SO supportive in this whole thing so thanks in advance!

Ok, I first made contact with me (soon) 22 year old bson at the end of February! It hasn't even been a month! The first week was crazy, one or two emails every day (we haven't spoken on the phone yet). He is fantastic, I was flying SO HIGH!
Now things are getting back to normality.
I am trying SO hard to play it cool. I sent him some scans of baby pictures that I was lucky to have gotten a couple of days ago and have had no response yet.
I'm SURE he's busy! He works, he's in college, he has a girlfriend, friends, family. But I have that little bit that niggles at the back of my brain thinking, 'he doesn't want to talk anymore'
But that's just SILLY!
He's told me that having contact makes him feel good. We've talked about possibly a ftf in May. We've talked about him coming to visit me (in Sweden) later this year or next. ALL of this has been his instigation! (like I said, I'm playing it cool! or trying).

I guess the only thing that makes me worry...a couple of emails back I did say 'of course I love you! I have since I've known of your existence, one of those non-conditional forever kind of things'. I worry that freaked him out. Is it ever bad to know you're loved? I just had to say it though.

THANKS! for letting me vent!

[amyshaw]

Quantum,

You're not being silly, you're being "a b-mom in a new reunion." Your head is "playing it cool" but your heart is saying NOW NOW NOW!

Like you said, at his age, between school, girlfriend, other friends, and family, he's extremely busy.

I don't think a person can ever hear "I love you" too much. Don't over-think telling him that. Never question speaking from the heart--it's the best honesty there is.

Sit back, relax, and "patiently" wait for that next email--it will come!

[bromanchik]

It's nearing the end of the semester. I think it is just school work.

[quantum]

Thanks and yup, I think so too.

He did take the initiative to chat via gmail with me last Sunday night! Felt great!

Fortunately I've been super busy this week as well.

I really just am hoping for years of building our relationship!

Thanks!

[Sun8]

You said " ALL of it his instigation" That sort of says it all. Stop worrying.... he is obviously interested and emotionally vested or he wouldnt be coming up with idea's to meet f2f!!!!

[EllieJ11]

Oh my gosh, I'd be feeling the same way. It's hard not want more now, now, now when it's new, exciting and something you've wanted for so long. I'm sure as others have said, he's probably just busy with school, but I think I'd be checking my email compulsively hoping for a response.

I'm so happy for you. I can hardly wait to hear how things develop.