[sorrytoloseu]

All these others they beg as they do,
but what have I ever asked of you?

Forgive my mistakes, as I learned from them hard;
guess its too late to say I am the retard...


iIknow I've done wrongs, and for that I must pay~
trust me ~I feel the effects every single day!


What do I ask?.. I ask none of you.
You turned your back in all we went through.


Where was your guidance when I was alone?
Where was the signal I should have been shown?


Where is my family to this dying day?
Sure as hell ain't with me, for this I do pay.


So I've learned patience.. and to stand on my own
but why did I lose my kids, and have to go it alone?


Why am I angry? Twas my bad mistakes...
Am I so undeserving of the pretty pearly gates


that you snub your head and turn away~
leave me like the others til my final day?


Where are my children, are you punishing them too?
Are you blaming them for all that I do?


Has my family name been cursed from the beginning of time;
was this game of my life a musical chime?


Where are you now, and why do I still stand alone...
are you punishing my children as the bible has shown?


When will you give me the break that I need;
and give me back my three precious seeds?


Do you not care of all I endure?
Do you not care that I feel insecure?


Do you not care that I'm trying so hard,
or have I passed up my pretty gold card?


Whatever it is that you choose with me...
just know I'm not going anywhere, and will wait patiently.


I have no choice

written by myself: Dawn m Clark~Hadley

this poem is written for my children who were taken away from me back in 96. my oldest son will turn 18 in april of 08 and so will begin my search for my children, which i have 3. i have come a long way to try to survive this, and not a day goes by i do not miss them or think of them. all of this took place in toledo, ohio and their names are REMOVED BY MODERATOR. If they get this message just know that MOMMY LOVES AND MISSES YOU AND I HOPE YOU WILL FORGIVE ME FOR MY MISTAKES. NONE OF THIS WAS DESERVED. ONE DAY YOU WILL ALL KNOW THE TRUTH.
Dawn-dmc@myway.com

[longingtomeetyou]

i am a birthmom also and am patiently waiting for the day she turns 18......


i know the pain you are feeling
.....if you want to share why your children were taken from you i will try to encourage you in anyway i can ......

no one understands the pain of a birthmom trully unless you were a birthmom....the emotional pain is undescribable.......hugs to you hon and im here for you ...God bless hon