[Looking4Katelin]

Has anyone found any clues in there medical records from giving birth? What kinda of things should I look for. I will be getting hers and mine soon. I am really just starting to search and this is my first piece of info regarding the both of us.

[Looking4Katelin]

Well looks like I will be unable to obtain any records as they have been destroyed!!!

[merrill1277]

Originally Posted by Looking4Katelin

Well looks like I will be unable to obtain any records as they have been destroyed!!!

I'm so sorry to hear that. Have you consulted any search angels or search and reunion sites? I don't have experience with search as I was found.

But as far as medical records, a couple of mos.after my first son found me we went together to the (hospital of doom) to get our records. He got his, but mine were destroyed. But on his newborn records among other things it showed what they drugged me with during labor and birth -- scopolomine, sparine (a tranquilizer), 200mg Demerol total within just a few hours time, and general anesthesia (which involves intubation) -- none of which I asked for or would have wanted. Not having my own records, I don't know what was given after the birth, but I know I didn't wake up until the next day.

In those days you were nothing but a piece of meat to do whatever they wanted with in order to get that Baby. I later found out his aparents already had these newborn records which also included my name, address, SS#, etc. but when he found me in his early 20's they said, "Why do you want anything to do with her, if she cared about you she would have searched for you" (This makes my blood boil !! )

From my end of it I always felt somehow that he would search for me one day and could easily do so. I also used to think it was his/ their prerogative and didn't know I was legally allowed, and also felt that if they ever needed ANYTHING, they would have easy access to me, as the doctor was a mutual contact. I didn't know all those years they held such an poor attitude towards me whom they didn't even know, while my own mind was busy playing tricks on itself repressing an unbearably painful experience to allow me to function.

I recently got in contact with the doctor's wife who is still alive (the doctor is deceased) and she knew things that were told my son were not true and told him personally. She never doubted my integrity, and doesn't understand some of what they've done and said. I personally feel that all the lies that are told will some day be called to account by those who tell them. Lying can cause so much destruction in relationships. Why do you think certain lobbies, many agencies and organizations, and even many in government try to keep records sealed and reunions from happening? To keep the truth in darkness.

Any way I wish you all the best in your search. I'm sorry this turned out to be more of a vent. You can do that here, too.

[Looking4Katelin]

many thanks to this board and the search angels!!! I have been blessed.... Thank you all...