[CynthiaW]

I don't quite know what to do, or what to say. Its taken 28 years for me to come this far. Fear that my daughter would hate me trying to find her. Fear that I will find out that she had a terrible time, even though I did what I thought was best at the time, by giving her up. I guess there is no way of knowing what lies ahead, with a wing and a prayer, I move forward, into the unknown.

I can't remember things I need to know to find her, the dramatic process of going through terrible moments is that your mind blocks out so much, because it hurts so much to remember.

All I can remember is that She was born in October of 77 in Alexandria Louisana, Rapides Hospital. I named her Juliet, even though they never allowed me to see her. Back then, I didn't know that I had choices, that I didn't have to give her up, that I could have done something different. But that is water under the bridge.

She would be small, short, brown hair, maybe freckles. She is part Philipino, part white. She might have hazel eyes, its hard to say. But I imagine she would be a pretty young woman now of 27 years old.

If she is searching for me, I hope its because she wants to know who I am. I know I am scared, for many reasons, but I know I need to find out if she is ok. I have spent the last 27 years hoping, praying, wondering, worrying about the little baby girl I had to let go of.

So if your read this, and you were born in October of 77 in Alexandria Louisiana at Rapides Hospital, please contact me, if only to finally close the circle, and let the healing begin.

[thesearchguru]

Welcome to the Forum Message Board!

Contact for adoption related information and records:
Louisiana Department of Social Services
Office of Community Services
5700 Florida Boulevard, 8th Floor, P.O. Box 3318
Baton Rouge, LA 70821
(225) 216-6925
Fax: (225) 342-4086


Requesting Identifying Information: Identifying information is provided through an Adoption Registry.

Using the State of Louisiana Adoption Registry: Adopted adults age 21 or older, birth parents, and birth siblings may use the registry. One hour of counseling is required.

Contact:
Louisiana Adoption Registry
PO Box 3318
Baton Rouge, LA 70821
(225) 342-9922
(800) 259-2456





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Other great websites to check out:
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http://www.adoptionlists.com
http://www.adoption.com
http://www.adopting.org
http://registry.adoption.com/

[blankenb4]

Boy, do I know how you feel. I was exactly where you are emotionally back in March. My daughter was born 33 years ago. I had always felt that I did not have the right to search for her because I had allowed her to be put up for adoption. But I always wondered about her. Was she placed with a good family, was she healthy and happy? Did she have a good life? And then I woke up one morning and decided that I needed to put my name out there in case she was looking for me. I called the agency which handled the adoption and was able to find out her exact date and time of birth, her birth weight, length at birth, APGAR score. I was also able to find out which state she was adopted in and lived in. Her aparents are college graduates. And I was even able to find out their occupations. I was able to find this information out in a matter of weeks. I was so relieved to find out that she was placed in a good home. I was assigned a caseworker who was able to contact the aparents about exchanging ongoing unidentifying information. They wrote back that they had informed my birth daughter of my request. She is not ready at this time to have contact with me, but she and her aparents were compassionate enough to send me a copy of her wedding portrait. She is a college grad with a good job. This has made me feel so peaceful about the decision of adoption. I only hope that one day she will be ready to meet me.
So, in a short time span, I have been able to get answers to a life time of questions.

Good Luck in your search,

Barbara

[CynthiaW]

Hello Barbara,

I just wanted to thank you for your kind words. I think if I could just know she is ok, and for someone to fill in some of the blank spots, I would find peace of mind.

I wish I could remember more, but for what ever reason, I have blocked most of the memories out.

I don't know where to start, or who would be best to contact but this is a start.




Cynthia

[blayne66]

I only wish my bmom was out there looking for me. I have been on an endless search for 17 years. As it gets closer to my birthday I long for the answers once again. So I wish you bounds of Gods glory in finding what is in the plan for all. God Bless you.