[Lilacsandroses]

so i wrote my loving thoughts of missing her voice, and her emails, and her acknowledgment in general and today i got the big NO...
she informed me that i now no longer have access to see her Myspace page, which is the only link to her that I have had for the past 2 full years since she stopped really communicating with me...and that apparently I didn't remember that in the first contact letter, that she sent me 3 years ago, she expressed that she didn't want continued contact, that she only wanted to know that I and her bfather were still "out there"....I'M DEVASTATED!!! I'm at work and haven't done a thing to day because I'm just sitting here crying!!! I called her bfather and told him too....we just can't believe it.....somebody say something....anything!!!

[soprano]

I am SO sorry for your loss... and it is a loss. I have been in reunion with my daughter for 10 years, during which time she has cut me off 3 times (the most recent for 14 months). I have learned by reading other posts that this is not an isolated occurrence. So I've "tried" to shut out the voice in my head that has screamed, "What did you do?"

I don't have any advice for you except to use whatever support system (including here) to process this. And go on with your life.

You are in my thoughts.

Soprano

[josh1788smom]

Lilacs - I am sorry. My birthson did the same exact thing. We communicated on myspace too. One day, he just deleted his. In my case, though, I had just recently told him about his bfather's death. We even communicated about that, but when I replied to his question of how, and told him it was suicide, he cut me off. So, I, like you, keep asking what I did - did I tell him too much, did I say the wrong thing, etc, etc.

It is brutal, and I have no answers for you, because I am still cut-off, but know you are not alone, and we can hang out together (in cyberspace), hoping it changes for us.