[InBlindFaith]

Sniffles - you are waiting!! Anyway this room is like that song by the Eagles...you know, "you can always check out but you can never leave" ROFL!!!

I'm not in denial...I just choose which reality to accept!! LOL!!!

The cousin may not understand how Chocolate Easter Bunnies Are Evil or how someone can get upset because A Deranged White Shoe Wearing Woman Hit My Car or how The White Shoes Were Kharma. How could someone not read about this crazy chaos that happens to me?? Or maybe the cousin is scared...maybe, just maybe he is afraid if he reads them he will want to meet this nutty woman who Has A Maglite And Is Not Afraid To Use It. Or maybe he freaked out when he saw my statement to the world about being a Birthmom!! I am starting to work on a Blog about my adventures as a Brownie Leader. LOL!! My girlfriend thinks I should Blog about DD (the one I am raising) but I can't do that until everything is finalized with DH adopting her.

When Camp is over I will probably blog about that...because my idea of camping is a hotel with no room service!!! ROFL!!!

Sigh...I'm tired...I wanna take a nap!!

[zxczxcasdasd]

Roni and girls,

You know I love ya all. I hope your waiting is short and what a blessing to have each other to laugh with while you do.

So just now, out of the blue, DS said "Is M (bmom) getting an announcement?" (He's graduating from HS)

I said "I'll send her one if you want."

DS: "Yeah, go ahead."

Me: "With or without a picture?"

DS; "With"

Me: "Okay"

So I'm addressing it right now. Will go out in today's mail. This is the FIRST contact he has EVER agreed to in any way, not to mention initiating it. Not sure what will happen from here, but the announcement is going out in today's mail...

I wish it was ending a wait for one of you...but I knew you'd be interested. I'm actually a little shaky! This is huge.

Love you girls.

[Sniffles]

WOW Heidi that is a step in the right direction, cool!

Roni, all I can say about your blog is, ROFLMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My son was wondering why I was in here cracking up at the computer, he is starting to think Mom is losing it, but heck I know I have for awhile now. LOL!

My favorite was the A Deranged White Shoe Wearing Woman Hit My Car

[browneyes0707]

Heidi: I WAS wondering what was going on with you recently, and that is really awesome/scary/brave/wonderful of your son to make that HUGE step!!!! He is so lucky to have you there for him!!

Sniffles: You can only stay if you bring more chocolate, j/k PLease stay!!!

Roni: When I was a (pregnant) freshman in college, we all named our dorm rooms (don't ask ) and I happened to name mine "Hotel California" cause I had no roomate fall semester and everyone used my room for their guests to stay in!!! Coincidink? LOL!!!

TG: all I have to say to you is "TELL PEOPLE WHAT?"
No seriously, I'm there with you, you know that. I think b-moms and a-moms are on different clocks (and I don't mean that as a dig to a-moms , you know I love you all too, and there are just as many waiting for b-moms to follow through!!!!) But I feel the same way that if I said 2 weeks and two weeks passed, and I didn't respond, it would give off the impression that I was not a stable figure for DD to depend on. So I always follow through, I can only change what I can do, not what others do in return...

Blah blah blah. Lets face it it sux

[thanksgivingmom]

1. I LOVE the song Hotel California, it's one of my all time faves

2. Heidi! That IS huge! I am so glad you thought to give us that update...slivers of hope in the waiting world make all the difference! And how lucky for him (and M) that you're supportive of this!

3. I know Brown. Change the things you cannot accept and accept the things you cannot change, right?

4. I think sometimes it's so hard to vent because so many of the amoms here rock!

[zxczxcasdasd]

1. I just asked him if he wanted to include a written note before I sent if off and he said he would. Wow.

2. TG- PLEASE feel free to vent all you want!!! I agree completely that the general perception is that if the bparent cancels or postpones, it's due to lack of care or flakiness or instability, but if the aparents do it's just the best interests of the child or something they couldn't help. I remember reading when you first posted that in the Bparent discussion Brandy started and thinking it was both insightful and true. You have every right to vent so DO NOT think you have to put a disclaimer or not feel entitled to be frustrated about your situation. You have every right and should feel free to express it, without worrying what me, or any other amom will think.

3. Of course, being a 17-yr-old boy he didn't sit down and do it (write the note) and now he's having fun with a friend. I want to give him time to think about what he wants to say, so I've decided if he doesn't produce the note in a few weeks, I will ask him to do so, so I can get this sent off. Who knows, maybe he'll surprise me and actually do it today!

[thanksgivingmom]

That is sooooo awesome Heidi!

Thanks for the support on the venting issue I do vent when I have to (LIKE ABOUT THE SOCIAL WORKER NOT GETTING ME MY PICTURES!!! haha) and really, I LOVE having awesome amoms around because y'all keep us bmoms hoping and having the faith that when it comes time for our children to be ready for reunion, that their parents may be just like you!

[zxczxcasdasd]

(((((TG))))) I hope you get your pictures, and your visit, very soon.

[InBlindFaith]

((((Heidi)))) You have taught me so much!!! You are just...well...you ARE THE CAT'S MEOW!!!

Sniffles - The blogs are supposed to be funny. I have a hard time putting my animation into words. You thought that woman hitting my car was funny you should have seen the Security Guard when we went to look at my car. She couldn't stop laughing!!

Brown - I think Hotel California pretty much describes things for me right now. I keep checking out and they won't let me leave!!!!

TG - I hope you do get something soon!!!

Anyone up for climbing the walls??? I bet I can beat y'all to the ceiling!!!

[lahdh4]

I am climbing as well.

[thanksgivingmom]

Anything we can offer to lure you down Leigh?

Coffee?
Chocolate?
.....Wine? haha

[longingtomeetyou]

Originally Posted by zxczxcasdasd

Roni and girls,

You know I love ya all. I hope your waiting is short and what a blessing to have each other to laugh with while you do.

So just now, out of the blue, DS said "Is M (bmom) getting an announcement?" (He's graduating from HS)

I said "I'll send her one if you want."

DS: "Yeah, go ahead."

Me: "With or without a picture?"

DS; "With"

Me: "Okay"

So I'm addressing it right now. Will go out in today's mail. This is the FIRST contact he has EVER agreed to in any way, not to mention initiating it. Not sure what will happen from here, but the announcement is going out in today's mail...

I wish it was ending a wait for one of you...but I knew you'd be interested. I'm actually a little shaky! This is huge.

Love you girls.

another friend told me same story as this.....i applaud you for letting birthmom in on the grad.....wow.....even a picture .....wish there were more adoptiveparents like you

[josh1788smom]

Wow Heidi that is HUGE!!! I am so jealous. I know I have asked you this before - but could you plllleeeeaaassseeeee be my son's amom????? PLEASE????? You are the absolute bomb.

I am so proud of your son too. That is cool. I keep praying for a moment of that. I am still planning on incognito witnessing the graduation - it's friday 5/25. I'll need tons of support. 2 of my best friends for all of life are going with me. Bdad wants to go to - but I cannot do it. I just want to be a wall-flower and see him graduate.

I gotta go get a wig (just kidding).

[amyshaw]

Roni, you can have the ceiling for a while. Despite my best efforts not to, I guess I DID get my hopes up that my DD would call/email/something on Mother's Day, but it didn't happen. So, I came crashing down to the floor, well half-way down anyway. She hasn't denied contact either, as far as I know.

Tonight, if I can get my courage up, I'm going to call my CI to find out. This "not knowing" is driving me crazy. I'm hoping if I can get an answer (either way) I'll be able to start moving on.

So, since I don't have any margarita mix in the house, I guess I'm going to have to raid the fridge and eat up all the ice cream!

[browneyes0707]

Mmm, ice cream!!!

Heidi and Josh's mom: Congrats on your boys graduation!

TG: Wine! Here! STAT!!!

Amy: Good luck to you with your phone call!!! Remember we are hear waiting with you!!!!