[shannon36]

Ok, now that I've got it together a little more, let me try this again. My name is Shannon Hollingsworth I'm from Lawton,Ok. My daughters name at birth was Jessica Hollingsworth, she was born at Southwestern Hospital here in Lawton. Her fathers name was Edward Hollingsworth. She was born in Feb,1990 with red hair and a beautiful soul. The attorney that did the adoption was Cynthia Calibani, she has moved out of the state and no longer practices.I cant get any info through the courts and my mother didnt keep any records of the adoption. I was a young girl at the time.I dont know if she even knows that she was adopted, most people tell me she probably doesnt. I really dont know what I hope to gain from this right now all I know is that I'm bitter and resentful. She was my first born, my honey. I could never do to my daughter what my mother did to me.

[Janeytwo]

Dear Shannon36,

Hi. My name's Janey. Welcome to the forum!

I'm a bmom too; a double surrenderer.

I just wanted to stop by and offer support. I don't know a lot about searching but wanted to say that you will find lots of kindness and understanding here.

Keep posting and, if you can, share more of your story. I know it always helps me talking in here and I learn so much from everyone else.

Take care of you today! And it's nice to meet you!

[AlisonMarie]

I have a very similar situation. I was 15, and completely uninformed. I didn't know anything about the adoption, other than I asked for semi-open, and didn't get that, nor can I get any info out of my parents. With the help of an adoptive mom in my area who pulled some strings for me, I found the lawyer who handled my adoption, but haven't heard anything yet. I felt like once I found the lawyer it would be smooth sailing, but it doesn't seem that way now. I understand the bitterness. I will never have the same relationship with my mom after what she did to me. If you need to talk, or need advice, let me know. I placed my son in january 1997.