[thanksgivingmom]

I’ve absolutely been dreading today for a while now. A is 9 months old today. 9 months ago today, on a Thursday just like this one, the 23rd of November, I brought this perfect little baby girl into the world. And 9 months ago D got the call that she would be a Mother. In the week following her birth, D and I dodged each other in the hospital while A was in the NICU. I would come visit her, feed her, and hold her in the day, while D would come after work and take the night shift with her. I don’t know what day she was discharged, what day she went home with D, what day she really became hers forever.

All I know is that any day now, D will have spent more time with A than I did. I count my whole pregnancy as quality time with A. I cared for her, I read to her, I sang to her, I did everything I could to make sure she would be a happy, healthy, perfect baby.

I’m not angry, I’m not resentful, I’m not questioning my decision, I’m just grieving our time apart I think….

Is it just me, or did anyone else have a hard time at 9 months?

[browneyes0707]

((((TG))))
Nine months for me was on Christmas Day. Now that I think back, I don't think that I would have admitted that I was having a hard time, but it kicked off a period where I started to talk to b-dad more frequently and we began to talk about getting back together and all that. We did and we broke up days before DD's first birthday. We tended to project my feelings for DD onto eachother at that time in our lives, so I guess that was my way of dealing with it.

I totally understand why 9 months might be a hard milestone. (((HUGS))) we are here for you

[bromanchik]

I absolutely remember it. It was hard, harder than his birthday in many ways.

You will be in my thoughts.

[bajj]

(((((((Tmom))))))) You are in my prayers.

[blessedbybug]

(((((((((((((((Thanksgivingmom and A))))))))))))))))

[Mommy24]

(((((((T)))))) thinking of you!

[quantum]

[zxczxcasdasd]

*hug*

Be kind to yourself this week.

[lahdh4]

(((TG)))
9 Months for J was January 17th. Right after all of the holidays and that was when I called E up and started again with therapy. I hated it. It just told me that her birthday was right in front of me.
(((TG)))

[thanksgivingmom]

Thanks for all your record-breaking-ly huge hugs...times like these make me realize that I'm going to have to tell someone in my life about this soon, because it's just a lot to hold onto alone...

I can't say how I will be on her birthday, but I have been dreading her birthday much less than this...this just seems different - like in my mind her birthday is a celebration that she's a year old, but in a few days she will have been away from me longer than she was with me....I hope I get to see her soon...

[browneyes0707]

(((HUGS))) I was thinking of you today.

As a former secret keeper (well, I still have the secret, but I have told others in my life ) I can tell you it is a HUGE release to tell just one other person. But I know you will be able to do that in due time.

And we will be here for you as you go through that as well

[lonni]

Blah;~((
Really sad TGM.
I wish A. was right by your side.

[InBlindFaith]

(((TG))) When you tell one person it will feel like the flood gates had opened. Before you know it you will telling that person everything and afterwards...you will feel so much better!!!!

HUGE ((((HUGS))))

[taramayrn]

Thinking of you ((((HUGS))))

[gottahavehope]

I hope you get to see her soon too!
Love and peace,
K