[paige20ae]

I was adopted from birth and have always known about it. When I turned 18 (2 years ago) my parents (adoptive) agreed to let me contact my birth mother, whom they had kept in contact with. She's married now with a son, and we contact each other every once in a while, on holidays, birthdays, etc.
She was 17 when she had me, and her boyfriend was 27 at the time. He got drunk one night when she was pregnant with me and tried to abort (me) her baby. She broke up with and later told him she had had an abortion. About a year after I was born she ran into him and told him the truth. From what she says, he was pretty understanding and gave her some medical information if I ever needed it, and that was it.
I did some snooping around when I was a teenager and found out my "bfather's" name and that he is in prison for murder and tampering with evidence (he smoked the guys' drugs). From inmate records I found out that he is in for another 60 years (he's now 47), so pretty much life.

My question: Should I try to make contact with him? I'll admit, he doesn't sound like the best guy-but he has been in prison for a few years and will be there for many more. I have an excellent relationship with my parents now, but I am still curious. Obviously my expectations of him aren't very high considering what I have already found out.

Any advice? And how do you think he would feel about me contacting him?

[Rylee45]

Wow, I don't know how to answer this question for you but if you want to meet him even just to know who he is, then I'd go for it if I were you.

As you said, you obvisouly don't have any high expectations about him. However you might want to brace yourself for not getting a warm reception. He may not be very nice to you and you may have your feelings hurt.

If you're prepared for that and still want to meet him. Go for it. I wish you luck in this endevour.

Rylee

[rainmon]

if his parents are alive I would contact them, but not him without first talking to someone in his family that could advise you on whether to or not. people in jail can be very manipulative. (money, favors etc...)
would you really want that on your shoulders?

[bprice215]

no one can blame you for that. Be prepaired for what you may find for you may not like it. But by all means go for it. Good luck. Let us know how it turns out.

bprice215

[echox]

Just wondering if you had gone through with it? I don't know what I'd do in your position. I have not even considered looking for my biological father. The info I have indcates he didn't want any part of my bmoms pregancy or me. If we were to meet I can pretty much bet I would be charged with assault. Good luck, there are ppl here that can relate to the inner turmoil you are going through

[Xdad]

I can only say that many are put into prison for skoking someones drugs, that dosn't mean that they are bad people, just have some issues sometimes. Id suggest making contact, 60 years is a long time for a mistake, that was more poor judjement rather than delibratly hurting someone. Maybe you give him a reason to live?