[joycie]

Originally Posted by eastendmommy

I know he's read his letter and looked at the pictures by now... how I wish I knew how/if that affected him...if it was good or bad or indifferent... I am patiently waiting for him to return the courtesy! You all, of course, will be among the FIRST to know when I receive a picture of my handsome son![/color] Tammi[/color]

This is the hard part, Tammi, waiting for that response. It will come, I know it will. He's probably busy right now preparing his own package to send to you and processing, processing all that you sent. By your own admission, you sent him a filled envelope. This is major for him, believe me, even if he might never say so. My son hasn't ever expressed how he felt at any stage in the development of our relationship but his actions have spoken for him. It will be awesome for you once you finally gaze at your first born son's picture, but for him, it has to be many more times than one simple awesome. Think of it this way: He is 25 years old and he has never seen the face of another related to him by birth. You, on the other hand have always lived with birth relatives around you....for better or worse! It has to be very momentous for him. I'm waiting right along with all the rest here for you to receive your pictures. They WILL come, just can't say when. I had to wait TWO MONTHS from the time I mailed mine away to get some back. Here's hoping Jason is speedier than that! Audrey.

[StepDad]

Hi Everybody. I want to thank you all for your continued support of my wife. She really values all of you. We have regular conversations - over coffee, usually - and she keeps me updated on most of you. I like hearing of your successes...the sadness is overwhelming at times. I guess that's why you all refer to this as a roller coaster ride! For those of us peeking in, we can see where the name came from! Very fitting.

Been pretty quiet around here lately. My wife mailed off her package to her son last weekend. Now she waits to see if he will send her something back. She is so anxious to see his picture. I can feel her tension sometimes. It pulses through the house. She's a wringer of hands...and a pacer of floors...and a CLEANER!!! Oh my gosh! This woman cleans like there's no tomorrow when she's upset or has her mind elsewhere.

I can always tell when something's REALLY bothering her : our house will be spotless by the days end. She scrubs things she's already cleaned if she runs out of something to do. Anything to occupy her mind. I know she comes here alot. She gets alot of comfort from this forum. "Kindred Spirits" is what she's found here. That and acceptance. I love how all of you GET IT! No matter where you are in the adoption world, each one of you has the insight that only comes from being in the adoption circle. Other people don't understand, but all of you do. I have learned so much from coming here, reading your stories and corresponding with you. You are a great group of people! Thanks for extending your wisdom and friendship to us. We are ready to get going on this adventure!

Check in again when I can, StepDad

[Montraviatommyg]

StepDad, Tammi's not alone there are plenty of compulsive cleaners amongst us. Me... I either clean, write or get obsessed with these forums...got so bad at one point that I to force myself not to come the pc for days. I wasn't sleeping or eating which wasn't healthy either. We are all "here" for her reaching out through cyber space.

Pip

[eastendmommy]

Dear StepDad.

What do you mean, COMPULSIVE?????????????

Don't you LIKE being able to eat off the kitchen floor???

Don't you LIKE someone who follows you around with a dustbuster??? What's wrong with you???? Hahaha!

Hi, honey!!!

Hehe...Okay...maybe a touch of compulsion, but I CAN STOP ANY TIME!!! I SWEAR!!!


Hey Pip!!! I'm "HERE" for you, too!!! I like all your new graphics! I have a cat named Boo-boo, as well! (Okay, that wasn't MY choice for the name, but the daughter won out!) I'm glad to see your posting some more! Love ya!


Hugs, Tammi

[Jackiejdajda]

From another thread..

Tammi wrote..
"My F2F is this coming SATURDAY...one week from today! I am so nervous... and excited... and scared poopless... and wondering if I'll be a dissappointment or a crazy new addition... whew! wore myself out there for a minute!"

You are going to meet him at last.. wow..

I wanted to write how wonderful here..

Jackie

[hummeryellow]

Totally awesome Tammi, Just be yourself and, don't forget to breath.

Biggggg Huggggs
Mary-Ann

[keds]

Tammi, Excellent! Enjoy yourself, I was so nervous I was sick to my stomach when my son called the hotel room and said he was downstairs. Be yourself, relax and like Mary-Ann says - breathe!

[Jackiejdajda]

I remember being sick.. my stomach in a knot..

We had to drive and drive to his place and then find a ferry.. hubby called them on the cell phone..

What a time.. it was..

Jackie

[janiej]

I remember the rain......it was a three hour drive to meet with him. And it rained BUCKETS ! It never let up. That was three years ago....and to this day, when it rains hard, I think of that day.

Much else about the day is a blur....but I do know I was the most scared of any time in my life....so Tammi, and any others waiting for this precious moment, know you are not alone, and others DO know how you are feeling right now .

You may think you will not survive it, but you will.....you will. Just BREATHE....and know we are here.

[Jackiejdajda]

Hey janiej...

Rain sucks..

Jackie

[janiej]

Originally Posted by Jackiejdajda

Hey janiej...

Rain sucks..

Jackie

Yeah...it does. But for me, there WAS a "rainbow" at the end.

[josh1788smom]

Soooo happy for you. You'll have to keep us posted!

[Jackiejdajda]

I am going to keep a lookout for Tammi..

We could add another hundred posts to this thread and really shock her..

Tammi where are you?

Jackie