[StarryNights™]

Hi all,

I had lunch with birth father last month. After a very long talk, he hinted I needed to start my search back up for more information, need to try again to have a relationship with birth mom.

It was during the conversation about how badly my relationship is with my two half sisters that he brought this up. I asked him why? I asked him, did he father more children? He said, "No, sooo...." with the most intent look at me. He refused to say the words but kept hinting at it. I had to guess, just like when he hinted about my half sister on my birth mother's side. Yup, you guessed it, it seems birth mom possibly gave up another child younger then me up as well. Somewhere around 73/74. I have not other information aside from that.

He also admitted he is to blame for the relationship with my youngest sister. He owns a company and she works there as his right hand. If you remember he had me start working there the day after I met him so we could get to know each other. He didn't take into consideration his other daughter who is 10 years younger then I am, would get jealous and not want to accept me. At least he took the blame, as I have tried to get to know her.

My communication with birth mom was limited to me emailing her and her not responding, or when she did it was a very short paragraph. She never called me except for the day before my birthday when we first connected. Now since I wrote her about the “other child”, she has told my cousin and her sister, she wants no contact with me at all. (Fine by me, if you knew the type of person she is, she has a really checkered past.) I have no communication with her daughter either who recently moved back up to this area with her two kids.

I am not sure that I want to track down yet another family member. Heck, it took me almost a 6 months after I learned of my adoption before I decided I was going to start my search at all.

When I lived in FL, my birth mom was only an hour away from me. I saw her twice. Both times when she was in the hospital. (She had colon cancer with surgery). We maybe a total of maybe 1 and a half hours to chat. Never once being left alone so would could have any privacy. Shortly after I left FL, I sent her a letter with the one photo of her and I together. That is the only photo I have of her and I.

Even though I did not find out until I was 35 that I am adopted, I can tell you I am glad to of gotten the medical information and have a good relationship with my first birth cousin. Aside from that, I would have preferred to of never of found them all. They were not worth it! They are still a Jerry Springer show.