[twofus]

Friday around 1:30 we got a call saying that they had a referral for an 18 mo. little girl. The girl was currently staying with a foster family, but the family was overloaded. We were being asked if we wanted to take her by the end of the week. Although we'd gone ahead and taken the classes, etc., we had not actually been planning to get started until fall after dh changes jobs, so this was very unexpected.
Fifteen minutes later she called back saying that she had another referral--a baby boy who was three months old. We had been wanting to start with an infant, so this one resinated with me instantly. The catch was that they wanted to pick him up today, so we had several hours to pray and make a decision. When I told dh about it, he was like, "I just want to say, 'let's go get him!'" We said yes, although we did not yet have a crib set up, and I was not prepared with supplies. I was absolutely racing around trying to get everything ready.
Several hours later we find out that they couldn't find the baby. His mom had a history of "running away" at times like this. So...we didn't get him after all. I still finished setting up the nursery, just so. I played the mobile and looked through my baby clothes. Awww! Now I felt the sadness! It's hard to imagine that we could actually have had a little baby tonight. I keep missing him more and more. I think of him all the time, wonder if he's doing okay and keep praying that his isn't horribly mistreated. Crazy how you can grieve somone you never knew!

[bjhv5]

it is crazy how you feel through all this.
We are waiting for a call about the 5 day old sibling of our 13mo fs.She was born on July 27 and I just happen to work at the hospital where she was born and still is .I went in and fed her twice Saturday night I felt as if I was leaving my baby behind and wanted to stay there all day.I know we are SUPPOSE to her placement but you never know until the child is with you but I have washed all my tiny baby girl clothes and started getting the bassinet ready,I am going to be so heart broken if they do not let her come home with us.
I hope they find your son soon and can have him at a safe home with people who want him to be safe.

Deb

[Ms. Jackie]

I was in foster care for ten years and I know how badly the state NEEDS foster parents for children. I would like to thank you for being willing to open your hearts and homes and encourage you to stick with it. You will get a child if you wait long enough.