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do I have attachment symtoms
Hi, here's a little background on me first. After being born I spent about 4 months in a foster home and was adopted by my parents at 4 months of age. I don't know why I was in the fostor home for that long. Maybe birthmom was deciding whether or not she was able to keep me. Anyway, I grew up in what I would consider a "normal" home environment. My mother may not have been the most affection, but I always knew I was loved. My problem that I wonder is a symptom of attachment disorder is the following: I am happily married for almost 8 years. However, I still find myself daydreaming about my past relationships. Wondering "what if". Could they have worked out. I've always had a problem letting go of boyfriends and getting over them after the breakup. One of those break-ups even led to a depression and a tylenol overdose once. I sometimes think about what it would be like to see one of those old boyfriends, would he still be interested in me? I don't know why I still think of them this way when I love my husband. Does attachment disorder ever show itself as an inability to let go of relationships? I do also experience the symptom of not being able to speak openly with my husband about my feelings toward him in the same romantic way he does. I also have a problem meeting new friends because I constantly think "why would they want to start a new friendship when they probably already have friends they like". I don't want to bother people with spending time with me. I guess there's a little bit of low self-esteem involved there.
Sorry I've rambled on so much. If any of this makes any sense can you please give me some advice.
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12-11-2003, 03:39 PM
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