[kb4u2]

A day to remember like no other (Mothers Day, your birthday

Happiness, oh yes I have been so lucky to feel true happiness, I know what it feels like, how it effects me, and how it feels in my heart today. Its when I think about you Sam, my most wanted and loved little girl, my child I always called my " Special Pearl".
The memories I hold dear to my heart, knowing those memories will never, ever go away.

Mothers day is a day that always had such meaning for me as I recall, all those feelings I felt when I was small.
Those feelings were safe, warm, loved, wanted, protected by my Mother, and I could just count on her always being there. I could play happily, secure in the knowledge that my Mother would always care.
Sam I gave birth to you on Mothers day, and oh the feelings of happiness flooded my heart and soul, I knew God loved me so because he had answered my lifelong prayer, he gave me what I wanted more than anything, he gave to me that day true happiness. He had blessed me with you, my special pearl, my hearts desire, ,my own little girl.
You are no doubt confused, wondering why youre Mother is not there, you probably wonder if I even care. You might even think you did something wrong to drive me away, you wonder why youre mommy didnt stay.
You probably are unsure when you start to play, never knowing if again you will be taken away. The strangers you dont even know trying to show you that they care, but they try and try and for you they will never compare.
Its youre Mother that you long for, to ease youre fears, its your Mother that you want to wash away your tears.
You dont understand, and I am sorry you dont feel happiness, how could you, when you have to play like this.
You're childhood is full of confusion and worry, fear, wondering why you feel unloved, wondering if you're different somehow, it all so unfair.
I pray for you today my special pearl, that God will flood you with feelings of happiness, for you deserve nothing less. You deserve to play at ease, knowing youre valued and wanted, no reason to guess.
God I am asking you today to flood Samantha with her real Mothers love, let her play happily, free, let me give her back what she has always given to me, TRUE HAPPINESS
I love you Samantha, you're
my Special Pearl, my valued and wanted little girl
Thank you for the happiness you always gave me. Happy Birthday whereever you are, I pray that you play happily with no worries and no fears,
Love Mother

[sam schwartz]

i'm very sorry for your loss