[karbrown77]

Echoes

A child was lost along the way.
We once were close, now faraway.
Time stands still or so it seems.
As I await to fulfill those dreams.
Floating adrift detached from roots.
Of life's sweet truths I'm in pursuit.
Dreaming of the day I'll see
when my love can be set free.
I'll be released, unfettered to show,
these feelings that only continue to grow.

O mother do you think of me?
Were the ties dissolved? Are you glad you are free?
To carry on and leave me here,
is there no bond, no feeling there?
I can't believe you need me not.
Or my existence you forgot.
Voices of the past still say,
and echo in my head today.
Connections made between two hearts,
can never die nor be torn apart.

Did a simple signature sign me away?
Did it erase the memories from today?
Are there feelings left from long ago?
Is there any love deep in your soul?
For me to have, I'd surely take,
whatever gift you have to place,
into my life into my heart,
where you have always been a part.
I await for the time that I will know
when these two halves will be a whole.
Karen Joiner-Brown

[Dore]

I gave my baby up dec 16 as a B-mom reading your poem I'm totally crying my eyes out. Your b-mother is thinking of you and still loves you. I am also crying because I was adopted so I know your feelings.

[karbrown77]

Oh thanks so much. TODAY I think I finally FOUND her....long story. BUT, I have to wait until she returns from vacation to talk to her. We had exchanged letters (non-id cause she could not "come out" due to me being a secret) and is such a lovely person. SO wish me luck as I embark on another journey. Hopefully she will be receptive to my calling her upon her return (talked to a cousin I believe?). If not, then I will leave her be.

I wish you peace and joy. It is a long strange journey isn't it?
Much thanks again,
Karen

[karbrown77]

sorry I'm so emotional right now. Yes, she said she had thought of me on my birthday every year, when I would have started school, college, did I have kids, was I happy. To hear I was wanted was more than I could have hoped for. It was the most beautiful 8 page hand written letter in the WORLD!
K