[Rose Ekerholm]

My Beautiful Daughter, Tonya

How did you feel when you found out?

Did you think that you were nothing?

Did you want to scream and shout?

What was it that you were thinking?

Did you think I didn’t love you?

Did you ask why I gave you away?

I just want to know what you went through,

and I wish you would say what you want to say.

I realize you have built a wall

to keep from getting hurt again.

It’s not that I blame you at all.

I understand the reluctance for trust to begin.

I think you want to destroy your wall,

and want to believe I really do love you.

I’m trying hard to get that wall to fall,

but I really don’t know what I can do.

No one hates me more than I do,

so forgiving myself is impossible,

but forgiveness is what I ask of you.

Maybe together we can both become whole.

Copyright ©2006 Rose Mary West Ekerholm AKA Plethora

Inspired by, and dedicated to my daughter Tonya.

[Rose Ekerholm]

I tried to change the title on this, but could edit everything but the title. I'd mistakenly put the wrong title in; it's actually supposed to be titled Tonya.

[escottswanson]

best wishes for you and your daughter

for me its more of a matter of understanding than forgiveness,,, I would never need to 'forgive' my other mom for anything. I do feel a strong need to thank her though. My understanding if finally in place and secure. I hope that Tonya (and you as well) can achieve this understanding too.

No forgiveness needed, just love and understanding

[Rose Ekerholm]

Thank you for your response. That was written at the beginning of our reunion, about 2 years ago.

My emotions change from day to day..sometimes several times a day. It's harder for me to forgive myself than it is to forgive others. It's something I'm working very hard on.