[sleeca]

Everythings gone wrong today.. no one reacts to anything you say. No matter how much you scream and cry, the world seems to be passing you by. No one seems to notice or care, that your trying to be heard over your despair. But on one face a smile shines through, a smile that knows and cares about you. A smile with love to lend, on a face you recognize as a friend.

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Looking in the mirror, I see to my surprise, a completely different person, staring deep into my eyes.
The carefree little girl, I saw at 4 and 5, has now become a young woman, fighting to survive.In a world filled with madness, that surrounds me everyday, it's frightening to think, I could be killed for what I say.Remembering a time so long ago, picnics, swingsets, barbies and waterparks, a time when I didn't worry, about others remarks.It's scary that time flies by so fast, and what used to be the present, has now become my past.And when I look in the mirror, what I see looking back at me, is the face of an aspiring young woman, where the little girl used to be.

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I didnt ask, I didnt tell, how would i know, it would go to hell... I tried my best, I tried real hard, to long myself into your heart... I was left again, this time the choice was mine, now i sit and wonder, will i ever again find... The happiness thats due to us, in this lifetime, yearns a question of trust... Will he forgive us, will he ever try, is it worth the screaming we feel inside?.. How will he know, if he never does ask, how we all feel, behind the mask... The mask of betrayal, he made us seek, all just to be a part, of our own seed... Is it a waste, another waste of time?.. Or do i sit and pray, again this seek and find.. The seek and find, of longing love, of a Mother and a Sister, I yearn to love....