[Dobie]

SOmetimes I thought
I didn't fit in
and I dreamed and I wondered
what might have been
I danced with such smiles
with such perfect grace
with a big fat fake smile
plastered on my face
the anger that sparked
that final blow
left me with doubt
that I'd never know
as years passed me by
I still had my doubt
that I'd never know
what my past was about
no medical history
to know what might be
what could possibly happen
to little old me
But 23 years later
after that first day
I hopped on my computer
and not one to pray
I begged of my friends
to say little prayers
and to wish me great luck
assuming they cared...
well, all those well wishes
granted me strength
and I registered here
and hoped at great length
my search would be over
I'd finally be whole
I'd have a way to complete
my puzzlesome soul
One result did I find
that gave me such glee
I hoped beyond hope
Could it possibly be?
Had I finally found her?
Could it possibly be true?
And if I had found her
well... now what to do?
Should i phone her or write
Email or text
what steps should I take
and what would come next?
So I did what my heart
told me to do with that info
I emailed this woman
and hoped that soon I'd know...
She emailed me back
and to my great suprise
the tears I held for so long
flooded from my eyes
The info did match
the search was finally done
she was indeed MOTHER
She was the one!
And so now i sit
with my heart all a flutter...
for I finally found
a mom to call MOTHER.

Ok so I'm terrible at poetry... but that's a true testament to my real life experience... Hope you liked it
~Jamie

[sajofo]

Hi Jamie,

That was perfect - just right-

Knowing that you searched with all of your might.

We'll I'm one of those "mothers" and also was found.

Searching I longed to do, but was told it was not right.

Instead I filled my "file" and many prayers I did say.

Wishing and wondering if I'd ever have my day!

It's been 2 years now, and he was 30 last July,

He's lived in my house, and we have seen the fireworks in the sky!

Reunion can be such a blessing, with arms open wide.

It's been called a rollercoaster too, hang on for the ride..

Great gramma's to brothers, to nieces and nephews, no sisters, "in- law's will have to do.. We smiled for the family picture and took it with pride..

So many years ago I was a sad young woman.. making decsions that were so hard for my heart..

and for many years he wondered of what other family had he been a part..

So full circle he has seen, the dad, the mom, the family trees..

And the parents that raised him ,support us all so,
with their love and understanding, our families did grow.

sajofo