[nosweetangel]

When I was little I thought about you
and wondered sometimes if you thought too.

The love you had to give me away
made me cry at the end of the day

Emotions of rage, anger, and fear
would all come out in one little tear

Christmas was fun but, also hell on earth
because it just happened to be day of my birth

thinking of you on Christmas morn,
my emotions were almost always torn

Packages tied with ribbons and bows
mixed with thoughts of you that nobody knows

my life was great and always a blessing
but every day there was something missing.

the questions I answered when I was young,
from curious people but it always stung

“why don’t you look like your dad or brother?”
I’d have to tell them I’m not from my mother.

“There was someone else” I’d say “who loved me enough
to give me away when she’d knew it be tough.”

Then amazingly one day my prayers came true
and then next thing I knew I was talking to you.

Be cause of an angel my soul was set free,
I knew this was the way god meant it to be.

Questions are answered now, but still more to come
for the rest of my life I will always have some.

Twenty-five years wondering why?
My prayers were answered and I had to cry.

I now know that you loved me all through my life
and I know that for you the pain cut like a knife

the wondering is over and a new life starts
for you will always have a part of my heart

no more tears on Christmas or the rest of the year
together we will all have holiday cheer

One phase ending and another to start
I know that from you I shall never part.

Now here you are someone I never thought I’d meet
Thank you for making my life so complete.

[AMom2Two]

Wow, what a beautiful poem!!!!

I am so happy your bmom came back into your life and now you feel complete. Thank you so much for sharing this beautiful poem. Thank you for talking about what it was like growing up, not knowing your bio. roots.

Beautiful poems like yours make me feel relieved and HAPPY that my children have great open adoption relationships with their bparents and will never have to spend years wondering and seeking answers, like you did. In fact, I'm having a Halloween party at my house in a few weeks specifically so the bmoms of both of my children can meet.

Thank you for your reminder. Thank you for sharing!

(((hugs)))