[hprestonalexand]

Oh Dear Birth Mother, where are you?

I see you when I sleep, I see you in my dreams.

I have no one who looks like me,
or walks like me or talks like me.

My fear is that you will never see me again.

I fear that you won't meet my children.

They look like me, and walk like me and talk like me.

I see you in my daughters eyes,
and I think she sees you through mine.

My daughter has my spirit and I believe that it's yours too.

My son, he has my smile, and we know it came from you.

Oh Dear Birth Mother, I miss you so.

I pray each day that God has blessed you.

We pray each day that you will search for me.

My heart hurts so with every year that passes.

I want you to know, that I now understand
the position you were in when you had to give me up.

But I am here now, waiting, wanting, loving.

Waiting for you, wanting to meet you, and loving you.

Oh Dear Birth Mother, where are you?

[cmh19137]

Beautiful Poem! You captured exactly what I was feeling when I was searching. I hope you find her! Keep us all posted and never give up! When you LEAST expect it, you will find her. ((hugs))
Christine

[hprestonalexand]

I think I am just getting a little frustrated again.
I am at a huge dead end again and trying to stay positive.

Thanks for the support

Take care

[hopeful0712]

Heather,
You have touched my heart! I'm a bmom and I pray my children feel the same as you! I hope you find her soon! You'll be in my prayers!

Christine,
Hope everything is going OK with you!

God bless you both!
Robin

[hprestonalexand]

I hope I find her too.
And blessing to you!

Take care

[hprestonalexand]

I just realized that this is the first time I have ever admitted or said that I loved my birth mother.

I guess I have never been asked or had a reason to say it and really hadn't thought about loving her before.

But now I realize that I do love her.
I promise to let everyone know when I find her.
I can't explain how I feel in my heart.
She is in my heart, but I want her in my life!

Take care all

[Tigger27]

I love your poem, Heather. You made me get all teary eyed reading your poem and through this post. I hope and pray that my daughters will feel the same way and be able to say that I am in their heart the way you said that your birthmother is in your heart, when they are grown.

I hope and pray that you will find your birthmother and be able to have all your hopes and dreams realized in having her as part of your life.

Keep us posted on how everything goes. I still have 18 years or so until the reunion with my daughters will hopefully happen, but I am already looking forward to it and preparing for it, should it happen. I love to hear from others perspectives, such as yours, that are further down the road then me.

Thank you for sharing your heart.

Anne

[cmh19137]

Heather,
Of course you love her. Just wait until you find her... it's the biggest flood of emotions you've ever experienced! I never imagined I'd love my birth parents soooo much. I love my adoptive parents too, but never expected so many good feelings for my birth parents as well. It's almost overwhelming and my husband thinks I'm nuts . Just kidding! If you need any advice on ways to search, please pm me and tell me what you've done so far. I may have ideas to help.
Take Care,
Christine

[hprestonalexand]

The support means allot to me.

I have been just writing my feelings down lately in a journal, I did this when I was in highschool also. But after getting married and having kids and going back to college, I stopped writing which to me meant I wasn't acknowledging my feelings as much.

I have been searching for my birth mother for 7 years now and I feel like I could just reach out and touch her but I know I can't. She is in my heart and she always has been. I used to be very bitter and full of hurt, but I now see that my search was to take 7 or more years for a reason. I had to learn to heal and love again.
So I am doing very well. I am just getting a little discouraged, but I know when the time is right, we will find each other.

Anne, I love what you said and I do hope your children will search you out and have open hearts to you. Unfortunately some adoptees like me can be very bitter or just confused, when the time comes, be patient and sensitive. I pray it works out for you in 18 years or so

Christine, I will pm you, it would be very nice to talk and thank you for your kind words.

Take care guys