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Originally Posted By Terryl Lynn

I really need some help. Today is Mother's Day and it is a hard day anyway. I was born on Mother's Day and recently found that after all the time I have been searching for her she has already passed on. I have found my birth brother who happens to love me the same as I love him. Acceptance, finally, what a great feeling! At the same time I feel no one understands how this day has affected me. I feel that for most of my life I have to please others and not do what I need to do for me. So, today I chose to sit here by myself, reflect on new memories I have of her through my brother and quietly talk to her and grieve for her. I don't understand why most people can't understand this. They want me to be around them so they can comfort me, only one problem no one can truly comfort me I feel I have to work through this. I have rejoyced in my reunion with my brother and look forward to our future together as family, we both want that. People keep telling me you have only known him a couple of months, it feels like we knew each other forever, we even finish each others sentences. I am struggling with all this and if anyone can help me I would appreciate it. Today I feel more alone than I have in a long time, I wish someone could understand or relate. Thanks, Terryl Lynn an adoptee